I'm a functioning alcoholic cutting down Hey at 47 I've been drinking all my adult life. I've been rock bottom but have matured and not the person I once was. I was drinking every night after work few bottles of beer and a bottle of wine. I seriously want to stop drinking. Don't think I'm ready to stop completely so I have planned to allow myself a bottle of wine every Saturday evening and non alcohol beer if I crave the other evening. It's been 2 weeks. I'm amazed I've changed my mindset and it's working so far (early days I know).I'm not even thinking about the wine all day like I used to couldn't wait to get home so I could drink. I've had terrible sweating in the nights and waking up all hours? I used to pass out and sleep right through till my alarm and drive to work (which I should never of done) feeling like crap. I feel better in the days although I feel I look worse. I'm enjoying the na beer which has surprised me and I look forward to Saturday wine night i guess this is all still part of my addiction. But surely this is better than drinking every night. I feel I'm in more control. My partner is shocked after all these years and is really happy. We seem to be having a laugh more and spending time together. I would always drink alone in my bedroom. There has been bad times and I've joined this group for support to keep strong. Thanks for listening. |
Welcome. "This Group" is a sobriety website/forum so you won't get support for your plan to continue drinking. Sooner or later the "plan" to only drink on weekends or only drink wine or only drink on vacations and weekends or whatever crazy plan we devised - doesn't work. I hope you come to the same conclusion we all did and that is that we are not moderate drinkers, we drink to get the effects of alcohol. Once we start it isn't easy to stop. If you can moderate this way long term, well...good for you. If not, we'll be here. |
I'm glad you are cutting down on drinking, but this is a board for members who want to stop drinking completely. We do not support the use of drugs or alcohol on this board. If you decide to stop drinking completely, you will find lots of support here. |
Welcome. Moderations worked for me too, for about a whole minute. I found that if I had to tell my self "Ok, you can drink this much but only on this day" I had a problem with alcohol. The best way I found for myself to never have to think about drink, worry about moderating my drink, or counting my drinks for the night was to STOP altogether. Best of luck, DC |
Hope this doesn't come off as too rude but at 47, laying out some convoluted plan for moderation seems a fool's errand. I speak from miserable experience, not out of judgment. I'm 40 myself. I'm an attorney with a high profile job, kid, great wife etc. But what the heck does functioning mean anyhow - it means you are sacrificing aspects of yourself and your life to the poison. There is no such thing as a functioning alcoholic. And moderation ha! There is No Such Thing as Moderation. It’s as simple as that. It’s our Santa Claus. It’s trying to still wear that vintage t-shirt from high school you looked so good in – the thing doesn’t fit anymore. It’s perpetual dissatisfaction (as if it works). It’s like trying to eat cake through a straw. It’s a lie our beasts insist on perpetuating – the tiniest glimmer of hope that, yes, we can drink again someday! Like the rest of them! Deeply understanding and accepting that moderation is a fool’s errand, a myth, an addict’s falsest hope – seems to me to be one of the most crucial pieces of this sober puzzle. But welcome here. There is much wisdom and support. |
^^ That pretty much sums it up. ^^ |
It’s like trying to eat cake through a straw |
If anything, the attempt at moderation can be good, because if that fails then it can be crossed off the list as an option. I certainly entertained and attempted moderation for years until I proved to myself I couldn't drink...at all. But we have to prove that to ourselves, I think. |
Thank you for the Advice and comments. Like I said in my post I seriously want to stop drinking. I just thought cutting down to once a week was a good start as to not risking relapse. But I hear you and maybe I'm fooling myself Its difficult to imagine that I could never drink again! I am going to try to avoid drinking wine this Saturday evening. Thanks for your support. |
Welcome Maxjm. I think you'll find that most of us did try some kind of "moderation" of our drinking when we were trying to quit, I know I did many times. Unfortunately it does not usually work as you see from most of the responses. I think it's a great thing that you've made the decision to quit, and if you are able to go an entire week without drinking it should be very possible to not drink this weekend as well. Hope you'll stick around, you will find a lot of support and understanding here. |
Originally Posted by ScottFromWI
(Post 6813093)
Welcome Maxjm. I think you'll find that most of us did try some kind of "moderation" of our drinking when we were trying to quit, I know I did many times. Unfortunately it does not usually work as you see from most of the responses. I think it's a great thing that you've made the decision to quit, and if you are able to go an entire week without drinking it should be very possible to not drink this weekend as well. Hope you'll stick around, you will find a lot of support and understanding here. I am really determined to succeed. It's been really hard every day and worse at nights I just need to sleep but I guess the weekend will be the hardest as I had that so fixed in my head to get me through the week. Im feeling very anxious now . |
I tried too but it didn't work for me. But someone in AA said to never deny anyone of their suffering because it could be their path to sobriety. This may cause more suffering in the long run for you. I wish you the best. I would spend my whole week thinking of Saturday if I tried that. But that's me. |
Hi there I actually did a pretty similar thing. I was referred to an addiction counsellor and was pretty successful at cutting down, keeping a journal. But after a few months I got really fed up, my intake started to creep up again and so enough was enough, that was last September. Basically, alcohol still had control even though I had cut down - it was in control, not me, looking forward to my next drink. It really is simpler to think "can I drink tonight? NO!" than thinking about units/next drink. As another poster said, I think you have to come to that conclusion yourself. To me, it sounds like you will get there. It really is easier to not to have to think about it. Take care. |
So I can haz pet unicorn after all? |
Originally Posted by Maxjm
(Post 6813055)
Thank you for the Advice and comments. Like I said in my post I seriously want to stop drinking. I just thought cutting down to once a week was a good start as to not risking relapse. But I hear you and maybe I'm fooling myself Its difficult to imagine that I could never drink again! I am going to try to avoid drinking wine this Saturday evening. Thanks for your support. On a more serious note, of course trying to moderate is better than being hammered all the time, but most of us have found that it’s not a long term solution. By all means, give it a try, but note that the odds are against you, so be prepared to switch to total sobriety rather than going back to your old ways. Good luck and we are here for you! |
Welcome Maxjm. Count me as another who is unable to moderate. In fact, I made at least 3 or 4 attempts. In a relatively short time, I was drinking as much or more than the previous amount. We're here for you should you decide on total abstinence. I wish you the best. :) |
Originally Posted by Maxjm
(Post 6813055)
Thank you for the Advice and comments. Like I said in my post I seriously want to stop drinking. I just thought cutting down to once a week was a good start as to not risking relapse. But I hear you and maybe I'm fooling myself Its difficult to imagine that I could never drink again! I am going to try to avoid drinking wine this Saturday evening. Thanks for your support. |
I spent a yr+ after joining here perfecting my drinking to an acceptable and respectable amount. Didn't go so well and was actually harder than just drinking like I had been. Once I committed to 100% no booze it was only hard for a few months. It was also rewarding and that's something(illusion) that vanished from drinking for me. If drinking was rewarding why would I be trying to 'cut down'? Are you still having night sweats after 2wks? |
Originally Posted by DontRemember
(Post 6813224)
I spent a yr+ after joining here perfecting my drinking to an acceptable and respectable amount. Didn't go so well and was actually harder than just drinking like I had been. Once I committed to 100% no booze it was only hard for a few months. It was also rewarding and that's something(illusion) that vanished from drinking for me. If drinking was rewarding why would I be trying to 'cut down'? Are you still having night sweats after 2wks? |
Originally Posted by DontRemember
(Post 6813224)
I spent a yr+ after joining here perfecting my drinking to an acceptable and respectable amount. Didn't go so well and was actually harder than just drinking like I had been. Once I committed to 100% no booze it was only hard for a few months. It was also rewarding and that's something(illusion) that vanished from drinking for me. If drinking was rewarding why would I be trying to 'cut down'? Are you still having night sweats after 2wks? I am going to stop completely. This is day 4 of complete sobriety. I have read all the views and it's making me anxious so I'm going to stop now as I don't want to drink at all. |
All times are GMT -7. The time now is 08:23 PM. |