cant deal
 

feeling very suicidal right now cant deal with feelings anymore want to numb it or be dead want ever comes first

GMS, Please go to a hospital ER. Is your husband with you?

You might also call The Samaritans:

http://www.samaritans.org/

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html

GrantMeSerenity, please seek emergency medical care.

Is your husband with you? Please ask him to take you to the ER/A&E.

We care about you.

Do you have the number of someone to call?

GrantMeSerenity, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Please call someone ... I don't think you should be alone.

Is your husband around? Therapist?

Thanks for coming here and posting!

I have felt the same way. Please reach out for help--it may not feel comfortable to do so, but anything is better than ending your life.

Please let us know how you are doing!

my husband is with me today i opened up about myself normally i wouldn't do it at a group its wasn't therapy or anything normally i self injure or have eating disorder behaviours and there was a time where i used and drank to deal with everything i think i re traumatised myself triggering too much emotions to deal with am also exhausted av not slept very much in the last few days av hand two very long days in a row i need to sleep my husband is with me sorry i went off line for a while my husband was talking to me for a little while am going to bed hopefully i get up after 8am instead of 4 am my emotions are raw sorry
Borderline Personality Disorder having stops you from deal with emotions the right way where you can find destructive behaviours like taking drugs , self injury , eating disorders , drink and unsafe sex as a way to cope but its not really coping with the emotions am safe and sorry for posting this post

I'm sorry you were feeling so down GMS.
Hope you can get some sleep.

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still not feeling right didnt go to a meeting today next one is on Saturday
i see my pastor tomorrow at an lgbt group
feel unsafe even in places i normally feel safe at

I'm really sorry this has been a bad week for you so far GMS. :hug:

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Av not been praying maybe thats why things are so bad ...also been missing meeting this week i know should do the meetings but i feel like i shouldn't speak open up say how am feeling dont want to feel like this again
i cant deal with my emotions at all see my dr on Thursday next week then my psych in march seems like a very long time till i see her maybe i should at lest try to pray tonight i will try and pray but to my higher power and not christian at the moment i feel disconnected from God right now
i see my pastor tomorrow he is a good friend and normally tells it like it is
and normally i listen . if things dont improve soon i dont know what to do but i am going to get music threapy at one of the drop in am a member off and that should help i hope