. I have been sober but finished off some rum

then you have not been sober. that isn't being naughty, that's being addicted to alcohol and drinking when EVERYTHING in your life screams that you should not.

i am cheered to hear of your "plans" - one on one with a therapist and signing up for the life coach course. those ARE positive actions. not drinking at all NO MATTER WHAT is the key component here. i do hope your home is completely rid of any alcohol now.

Anvilhead - there is no alcohol whatsoever in the house now. I have plenty of soft drinks. I must confess I find it a frightening thought of not being able to have a drink again but like a lot of people here not many good things happen when we drink. The bad times outweigh the good times. I need to do this for myself and no-one else. If I can knock alcohol on the head - I know things will be a lot better for me

Hi Susie, have you considered GamBlock or some other software to block the gaming sites?

Hi Susiegirl. How did the life coach session go?

Day 2 today - what an awesome sleep I had last night. Must have gone to sleep at about 1020pm and didn't wake up once until 7am. Feeling refreshed however I have a counsellor appointment in an hour and a half and a little apprehensive. Hopefully it will dome good to talk though.