Little heads of for people thinking to drink
 

Hello,
I just want to share my experience. I had been sober for 64 days. I was feeling great and so happy, i even quit smoking. I was so optimistic about life with no anxiety.
Than i made a stupid mistake and drank for 3 days. Now i am 11 days sober again, feeling very bad and feel like i can`t breathe from anxiety... It wasn`t like this the first time i got sober...
Please do not relapse, it will be worse than ever before after relapsing.

well I'm sorry you learned that lesson the hard and direct way, but I've done it myself many many times, too. So, I understand.

Now almost three years sober, I can say with deep conviction that is just gets better and better.

:)

Keep at it. Congratulations on 11 days!

I agree with you that each relapse is harder than the last.

I hope this is your last Day 1.

Glad to hear your back to not drinking. I agree, those benders are killers. I think there is a saying here that refers to having another bender left in us, but not sure if we have another recovery in us.

Hi blackened, I'm glad you're not drinking again, I've been meaning to mention the anxiety I had when I restarted after relapsing. What I had to deal with felt different than the last time I quit. It was pure anxiety. The dreaded feeling you get when something is going to happen. This does eventually subside but it's a definite diversion for me to ever think I can drink again.

That and the first thing I recognized that when I took that first drink, although it did take me some time to get back to being as bad as I was, is that I had ultimately flipped the switch back on. The grinding wheel had restarted. The waiting to drink. Thought I could get away with not feeling that way but no.

I had finally gotten to the point in my life where thoughts of alcohol had subsided with only the occasional reminder that I used to drink. From the moment I took that first drink I had wiped that all out.

Sober time is never lost, it should be used as a reminder of how good things can be.

Thanks for this thread, It's a good thread for anyone to read who's considered restarting.

I'm glad we both made it back!

I too hope this is your last day one. :)

My last relapse was on day 79! Just when the pink clouds started waning, I slipped as a result of some pressure at work. I am 8 days sober now and I vow to keep working to stay sober. That is why I am on this forum. You all support my recovery and hopefully I support yours. I also started a blog of my journey. It is so therapeutic even if no-one reads it, it helps to re-wire my brain. Thanks for starting this thread, Blackened.:You_Rock_

Do you remember when anxiety went away for you ? I am also qurious how do you feel now...

This is a turning point for me also.. i always thought after 1 or 2 years my body would adjust and i can be a social drinker.. now i know if there is even a little possibility that i will feel like this again... i can not drink again