need to do this Hello all, i am feeling very delicate at the moment, literally spent the last 4 weeks admitting that I have a problem, but the going 3-4 days dry and then get wasted. If I do not quit drinking I am going to lose everything. My partner is about to give up on me, and seeing her crying this morning because I cant control my drinking is a sobering thought. I feel totally and utterly ashamed at the moment. Looks like I will be here for the long haul. |
Welcome Pieman. This is a great place to start. |
Thanks Thomas, I hate myself right now :( |
Soberrecovery has helped me immensely. I am 104 days sober now thanks to this group of people. You can do this. |
Been there. Ive got lots of those memories. Quitting benefits everyone. Stay with us you can do it. |
I will stick with it this time. I have no choice, my partner has taken off for the day and I feel full of guilt. |
Keep posting, Pieman. There is so much great support for you here. :-) |
Why do I feel so angry with myself? |
I think we have all been there pieman give yourself time to forgive yourself brother gradually things will get better the longer you stay sober |
Welcome to SR! It is a great place for you to begin your recovery journey. |
Originally Posted by Pieman
(Post 6110538)
Why do I feel so angry with myself? Looking forward to seeing you here. |
Pieman, anger toward yourself is quite common in early recovery. I kept going over the 'what ifs' and blaming myself for starting to drink and for not stopping sooner. If you feel anger, use it as a catalyst to move forward with your recovery, and as much as you want to do this for your partner. ultimately you must do it for yourself. |
Hi Pieman, welcome to SR. |
Thanks everyone, my partner came home before going back out to work (in a bar) and I feel like she is worn out with me, almost like she thinks that I am not going to stay sober, its like we have been here so many times before. I will do this, even though i feel like a total waste of space at the moment. |
Pieman, I drank daily for the past 8-10 years, only at night but had an ahaaaa! moment last weekend. I visualized what my liver looked like, watched alcohol documentaries, read forums, youtube etc and it scared the poop out of me, I just said I gotta stop.....I'm almost at the 36 hour mark and feel good, be stubborn! get mad! stop now! |
Instead of drinking this evening im lying on my bed feeling totally lost and angry. |
Pieman, it was helpful to realize my past 20 year choices were not the best but to realize everything moving forward could be different. What a difference it makes to wake up in the morning, I'll focus just on tomorrow, not puking in the toilet, or wondering what I did the night before. It also helps me to focus on liver health, read about it, create healthy drinks....... |
Originally Posted by Mklove
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Pieman, it was helpful to realize my past 20 year choices were not the best but to realize everything moving forward could be different. What a difference it makes to wake up in the morning, I'll focus just on tomorrow, not puking in the toilet, or wondering what I did the night before. It also helps me to focus on liver health, read about it, create healthy drinks....... |
Welcome Pieman |
Welcome aboard Pieman :) D |
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