Welcome and glad you're here. As has been mentioned, what is your plan? You do not have to white-knuckle this- in fact, that's a bad non-plan. AA sounds like a perfect thing right now. Talking with your wife, dealing with the recovery part of life sober - ALL can wait. Right now, don't drink, do other things and go to a meeting. Even if AA doesn't become your program for recovery, it can take up blocks of sober time at the beginning as you get the - significant amounts of- alcohol out of your body and can start thinking about your bigger plan.

Good luck.