Newbie Hi Everyone, A little background, I partied a lot in college, and in some was continued after that but it was more under the table. I quit drinking a few years back for a couple of months and then managed to "drink responsibly" for a year or so until some major stress hit. What did I do? You guessed it went back in to the bottle. This past Monday I broke out in hives, Dr. is thinking because of stress, but if scared me and I have self-diagnosed myself with about 17 different things. I made the decision Monday night that enough is enough and I am not 49 hours in. I looked at my wife and kids and decided that I wanted to not only make it to my 35th birthday in a couple of weeks, but that I want to be around for my kids 35th birthdays. I think if I can get the negative thoughts out of my head and just focus on the present and future that it will get easier. So far the only side effect has been a little "twitching" of my hands but it goes away quickly. Luckily I have an appetite and have been eating well. I thank you all in advance and please pray for me, if that's what you do, or send me positive thoughts. Thanks again. |
Welcome to SR FrankJr :) D |
Glad you are here. |
Welcome to SR, FrankJr! I'm glad you've joined us here. |
Welcome FrankJR! :) |
Welcome to SR, you can do this! |
Hi FrankJr |
hows it going FrankJr |
Welcome, frankjr, to SR; very glad you found us. |
how are you doing today frankj? |
Welcome aboard Frankjr. How is today going? |
Welcome frank, how has ur day been so far?? |
Welcome to the family. :) You'll find lots of support here. I hope we can help you get sober for good. :) |
Hey everyone, and thanks for the welcome. Sorry it took so long for me to post today, just been busy. I leave for work at 5:30 and usually don't get home until 3:15ish. Today has been pretty good all things considered. Slept OK, felt good all day, ran 35 minutes and got in 4.2 miles, made dinner, spent time SOBER with the wife and kids, and got to 2 grocery stores all by 9:30. The thing is, my grocery store runs after getting the kids down would always be a time of drinking, so to do it all sober was a little wierd. Health wise, besides the difficulty sleeping, and knowing my BP is a little high it was a good day. |
Originally Posted by frankjr
(Post 5841895)
Hi Everyone, A little background, I partied a lot in college, and in some was continued after that but it was more under the table. I quit drinking a few years back for a couple of months and then managed to "drink responsibly" for a year or so until some major stress hit. What did I do? You guessed it went back in to the bottle. This past Monday I broke out in hives, Dr. is thinking because of stress, but if scared me and I have self-diagnosed myself with about 17 different things. I made the decision Monday night that enough is enough and I am not 49 hours in. I looked at my wife and kids and decided that I wanted to not only make it to my 35th birthday in a couple of weeks, but that I want to be around for my kids 35th birthdays. I think if I can get the negative thoughts out of my head and just focus on the present and future that it will get easier. So far the only side effect has been a little "twitching" of my hands but it goes away quickly. Luckily I have an appetite and have been eating well. I thank you all in advance and please pray for me, if that's what you do, or send me positive thoughts. Thanks again. I'm guilty of the "self diagnosis" thing myself, even went to a dermatologist one time cause i was super paranoid about a new skin mole that appeared suddenly. I spent days and days sulking with my anxiety/paranoia building. I did the same thing, went to "Dr. Google" and it only gave me more anxiety, made me more paranoid. "Dr. Google" just makes your anxiety worse if you are an highly anxiety-prone person (as i am). I made my appointment, got checked out, and it turned out to be nothing.... wasted like $100. And that's just one example. When i was younger i actually went to an ER cause i genuinely thought i was having a heart attack, i was doing the same thing back then "Googling around". You'd be surprised how many "dangerous" conditions simple anxiety can mimic, almost exactly. Always see an actual doctor if something legit concerns you, stay away from "Dr. Google" it will just amplify your anxiety levels x10000. |
Originally Posted by grubby
(Post 5843787)
Hey buddy. Word of advice: stay away from "Dr. Google" and "WebMD"..... you'll drive yourself crazy thinking you're having a heart attack, have cancer, you about to die, etc. Seems EVERY little symptom you enter into Google comes back as "life threatening condition", "cancer", "heart attack", etc :rolleyes2 I'm guilty of the "self diagnosis" thing myself, even went to a dermatologist one time cause i was super paranoid about a new skin mole that appeared suddenly. I spent days and days sulking with my anxiety/paranoia building. I did the same thing, went to "Dr. Google" and it only gave me more anxiety, made me more paranoid. "Dr. Google" just makes your anxiety worse if you are an highly anxiety-prone person (as i am). I made my appointment, got checked out, and it turned out to be nothing.... wasted like $100. And that's just one example. When i was younger i actually went to an ER cause i genuinely thought i was having a heart attack, i was doing the same thing back then "Googling around". You'd be surprised how many "dangerous" conditions simple anxiety can mimic, almost exactly. Always see an actual doctor if something legit concerns you, stay away from "Dr. Google" it will just amplify your anxiety levels x10000. Thanks again. |
Looks like I spoke a little too soon last night. Ended up staying up watching a movie a little later than I planned with my wife. Slept well, but had some insane dreams including one of me drinking, and woke up with a headache this morning. I am assuming dehydration, but it sucks because I feel like I usually would while partaking. Add last night's dream in and I feel like I did a few days ago. HOWEVER, I am now 84 hours in, so I know it will get better. Luckily I get to go into work later than usual today. I hope you all have a wonderful day. |
Thanks Frank you too |
Ok, still having a rougher day than the last 3. Headache all day and now I am at my parent's house with my family which would normally be a few beer affair. Going to make it, but going to be a long night, especially with the kids being a handful. |
Were right here with you Frank |
Thanks Soberwolf, I really appreciate the support, I opened the fridge to a huge assortment of most of favorite beverages and stayed strong and grabbed a sparkling water. :thanks |
Things will get better Frankyjr - stay with it :) Congrats on yr progress so far :c014: D |
Originally Posted by frankjr
(Post 5845350)
Thanks Soberwolf, I really appreciate the support, I opened the fridge to a huge assortment of most of favorite beverages and stayed strong and grabbed a sparkling water. :thanks When I quit i still had about a 2/3 full 40oz bottle of Olde English 800 in the back of the fridge, along with about a 1/6 full bottle of some generic budget whiskey. In the early weeks it did cross my mind a couple times to "just have a drink" (cravings speaking to me/trying to tempt me). I remember one day early in week 3 i was eating a salad in the living room, i had a spur-the-moment thought to "finish off that bottle in there, one last time". But I came to my senses and remembered the HELL i had just been through the previous 2 weeks...... the extreme insomnia, the super higher blood pressure, the pounding heart, the shaky hands, etc. It's a good thing by then i had discovered alcohol awareness websites such as this one, just might have given in had i not known about risk of stroke, risk of seizures, kindling, etc. I just threw away all my booze the day after that craving.close call. |
Welcome, FrankJr! - Glad you've joined us.....you're in good company here! :) |
Grubby, this was at my parent's house, I don't have anything at mine. My Mom and Wife went to some conference so I took my kids out to my parent's house. All of this was planned before I decided to quit and haven't really told anyone I have because most didn't know, or never made a comment about, how far I had gone. Once I get to a certain point I am sure someone will figure it out and say something. I am home now and the girls are in bed, so hopefully I can relax to some video games and this incredibly annoying headache will go away. |
All times are GMT -7. The time now is 02:59 AM. |