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Oh one more thing. I don't want to be a lone wolf no more went I start thinking that way last year I almost sure is went my depression start, plus how I can be is I have my own pack of 7 wolf and 3 little wolf's. :) |
Your doing good Erfra |
Well my depression is less, last Tuesday I start fighting back, I even saw my friend on a meeting this week and it was no so bad. Went I have a bad though I tell myself that it has not power no emotions no feelings and it looks like it works, and my vitamins too. I being telling myself to that I'm a good man, friend, father, co-worker, that I'm worth it, that I'm handsome :) . Oh and good grampa. God brought me out of my alcoholism and drug addiction plus my divorce I was in a bad dark hell , survive suicide God must know something that I don't and I want to find out what it is. |
God brought me out of my alcoholism and drug addiction plus my divorce I was in a bad dark hell , survive suicide God must know something that I don't and I want to find out what it is. |
Good morning Erfra, Have a good day! The sun is shining over here and that's good enough for me. Off to exercise this old body and mind a little. |
Originally Posted by erfra7
(Post 5733461)
my emotions are my trigger big time. I must keep a good balance between my thinking and emotions. Full Definition of equanimity plural equa·nim·i·ties 1 evenness of mind especially under stress <nothing could disturb his equanimity> 2 right disposition : balance <physical equanimity> Examples of equanimity 1 Those who are doomed to become artists are seldom blessed with equanimity. They are tossed to drunken heights, only to be brought down into a sludge of headachy despair; their arrogance gives way to humiliation at the next curve of the switchback. —Patrick White, Flaws in the Glass, (1981) 1983 2 She's heading straight for us—he thought. … And his uneasiness grew by the recollection of the forty tons of dynamite in the body of the Ferndale; not the sort of cargo one thinks of with equanimity in connexion with a threatened collision. —Joseph Conrad, Chance, (1913) 1924 |
have a great day Erfra |
Originally Posted by erfra7
(Post 5768613)
Well my depression is less, last Tuesday I start fighting back, I even saw my friend on a meeting this week and it was no so bad. Went I have a bad though I tell myself that it has not power no emotions no feelings and it looks like it works, and my vitamins too. I being telling myself to that I'm a good man, friend, father, co-worker, that I'm worth it, that I'm handsome :) . Oh and good grampa. God brought me out of my alcoholism and drug addiction plus my divorce I was in a bad dark hell , survive suicide God must know something that I don't and I want to find out what it is. This is who you are, and who we all knew you are. |
Also, that baby is adorable in your AV! |
here is what I'm doing to fight back my depression, push up's went I wake up, I went salsa last night with this lovely girl that love's me., is I go to pity mode, I tell myself Eric people love you7 kids, 2 my own , 5 step-kids 3 grand-kids, I got friends, here and in AA, my friend girl left me because she love's me at little too much and she need to do what's is right for her. God love's me . gratitude at this moment is my hold life. I will not give up with out a fight. |
Well this the part I don't like about depression the ups and downs in my life. Still missing my friend. I'm in fear, anxiety mode, and I don't like it. A drink will not fix me, it just will make worse. Maybe I have to live in a psychiatric ward and go out to work only. M'i going crazy????????? |
Don't dwell. That's my best advice. Think of beautiful things. I have to stop myself when/if I start going down those negative paths. Google some nature images.... http://dpshots.com/images/uploads/20...irds_photo.jpg |
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I agree with bim, erfra. When those negative thoughts enter your mind, don't dwell on them. Deliberately and consciously push those thoughts aside and concentrate on positive thoughts. Think of your grandchildren, practice those new Salsa steps, read a book. We are with you, erfra. |
I will I'm Thank you. |
Try reading Around the Year with Emmet Foxx. Sermon on the Mount, also. |
OK I look forward to find it and them read it. I have hope that I will get better. I can feel the difference from a week ago, I still woke up with fear and worry or maybe anxiety but yesterday I start my day like that, and end it up with content. Last night I went to a friend one year cake, that's great. My old sponsor give me the news that he is engaged. Wow I can see the promises working on him. I felt so grateful for you guys, that I smile for having some friends around the world.. I love me I love being sober and clean. |
"Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly".............................. We are healing Erfra. |
Your doing great Erfra Breathing exercises are essential for anxiety they really help me as does mindfulness A breathing exercise that calms panic attacks. Deep Breathing Instructions for Calming Panic 3 Anxiety Breathing Techniques You Can Practice*Anywhere - Self help for anxiety - Anxiety Slayer https://youtu.be/daU-xneLA0g |
Right now I'm doing the breathing exercises and it helps I do it through the day, where ever I'm. I'm getting better. I'm healing. Some times quickly sometimes slowly, :) |
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