If this ain't my bottom...
 

Just drank aftershave, can't get the taste out my mouth, how stupid!!!

You don't need me to tell you how dangerous that is, right?

what are you going to do about it Eunectes? what's your recovery plan?

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It will get worse but the madness can end. Take a step towards sobriety

I hope you won't do that again. :(

Ive had like 3 bottoms this year each different than the last, making this whole year a perpetual rock bottom. I hope you arent the same. Goodluck

Make a plan. You know this misery can end. What are you going to change/do to move toward recovery?

My sponsor told me of a friend who drank hairspray in rehab many years ago. Ruined his voice - kind of a squeaky high pitch forever after, he described.

We can make a choice towards willingness to change - but some pursue drinking to insanity or death.

Hope you'll pull out all the plugs and get some additional help friend.

I heard this quote today:
We have to fall apart before we can pull it together. - Daffy Duck
For myself that was so true. Are you ready to pull it together? Just a thought.

I did this once. Had been holed up in a hotel room for about ten days, drinking a liter or so of vodka per day. Didn't have my glasses, had blinked my contacts out, hadn't showered in a two days, and even though I still had money for booze, I decided to go the aftershave route instead of walking to the store a mile away.

The next day, I was in the acute psychiatric ward for the first time. It would be one of three trips there, the longest being a 49 day stretch as a guest of the State of Wyoming.

You don't have to go down the road I did. Get help NOW and start taking steps to a different life.

You can turn this around Eunectes, draw a line under alcohol for the last time and move on with your life!! :)

I've tried hand sanitizer and mouthwash, but never aftershave.

There's a better way, my friend, and there's a path to get you there. Let's find it. :ring

Jesus man I've drunk method in desperation which is just as bad
Its never too late

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Jesus man I've drunk metho in desperation which is just as bad
Its never too late

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Eunectes can you get to a Dr or a hospital to get checked out ?

Rootin for you please know that things don't have to be like this or get worse & if you continue this will only get worse

Keep logging into SR & we'l be right here

You did the right thing by reaching out, reach out to whatever you can get your hands on especially this forum, the people here care, care for your health and well being and care for your recovery. As asked do you have a plan, I had to make a plan or I would have never even made it to where I am today, I have only been sober since the 12th but the plan is working and working very well.

I'm pulling for you! I hope this leads to you reaching out and taking the advice offered. You don't ever have to be that low ever again.

Hmm , you can step in 2 different directions right now...And Eunectes, since a lot of folks like ya to be around for a while , including us , please step in the safer direction..Even though it can be skeery as hell..I think you are swimming around mid level right now..That ain't the bottom..You do not want to hit the bottom.. You think taking the safer step is skeery , you should walk in and see what a rehab place looks like and watch folks trying to eat curtains and count floor squares...That's what the bottom almost looks like...

Avoid the bottom...Luckily , aftershave will burn when it comes out , but should leave your brain blood barrier alone..

Bring on 2016...

I'll share my experience with what I thought were bottoms...... they don't mean $HIT.

Amazingly, new and terrifying ways to hurt would roll into my life as I continued down the path I was on. Each one seemed to make the last one, the one that just had to be the last one, seem like no big deal.

Bottom, as it's commonly used, is NOT the events happening in your life, the things that hurt, the things that seem so stupendously stupid or damaging. Those things happen sure enough but unless your path changes, they are not bottoms. They're just sign-posts on your particular journey through hell.

Bottom, as I see it, is maked by two things and only two things. 1. a decision is made to change direction (to take new actions, to not repeat old actions, etc). 2. we begin taking (or not taking) those actions.

The neat thing is this - anyone can make that decision and begin changing their behavior at any point. It can come after a horrible event or not. It can come after just a little pain or it can come after near death experiences. It's entirely up to the individual.

I hoped and hoped that each disaster in my life would be the last......but all I did was hope....aka "wish." I didn't really make any decisions to change. Mostly what I chose was to keep doing exactly what I wanted to do, what I felt like doing, what felt good and what made sense BUT i also searched for a way to limit the pain. I also didn't make any lasting changes. I'd change something up for a couple days, maybe a week but nothing stuck - likely a byproduct of not really making that decision in #1 in the first place.

Bottom's a decision. Make that decision, or don't make that decision. It's entirely up to you......no need to hope.

I hope you take action to change your life. We're here for you.