If this ain't my bottom...
My sponsor told me of a friend who drank hairspray in rehab many years ago. Ruined his voice - kind of a squeaky high pitch forever after, he described.
We can make a choice towards willingness to change - but some pursue drinking to insanity or death.
Hope you'll pull out all the plugs and get some additional help friend.
We can make a choice towards willingness to change - but some pursue drinking to insanity or death.
Hope you'll pull out all the plugs and get some additional help friend.
I did this once. Had been holed up in a hotel room for about ten days, drinking a liter or so of vodka per day. Didn't have my glasses, had blinked my contacts out, hadn't showered in a two days, and even though I still had money for booze, I decided to go the aftershave route instead of walking to the store a mile away.
The next day, I was in the acute psychiatric ward for the first time. It would be one of three trips there, the longest being a 49 day stretch as a guest of the State of Wyoming.
You don't have to go down the road I did. Get help NOW and start taking steps to a different life.
The next day, I was in the acute psychiatric ward for the first time. It would be one of three trips there, the longest being a 49 day stretch as a guest of the State of Wyoming.
You don't have to go down the road I did. Get help NOW and start taking steps to a different life.
Eunectes can you get to a Dr or a hospital to get checked out ?
Rootin for you please know that things don't have to be like this or get worse & if you continue this will only get worse
Keep logging into SR & we'l be right here
Rootin for you please know that things don't have to be like this or get worse & if you continue this will only get worse
Keep logging into SR & we'l be right here
You did the right thing by reaching out, reach out to whatever you can get your hands on especially this forum, the people here care, care for your health and well being and care for your recovery. As asked do you have a plan, I had to make a plan or I would have never even made it to where I am today, I have only been sober since the 12th but the plan is working and working very well.
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Hmm , you can step in 2 different directions right now...And Eunectes, since a lot of folks like ya to be around for a while , including us , please step in the safer direction..Even though it can be skeery as hell..I think you are swimming around mid level right now..That ain't the bottom..You do not want to hit the bottom.. You think taking the safer step is skeery , you should walk in and see what a rehab place looks like and watch folks trying to eat curtains and count floor squares...That's what the bottom almost looks like...
Avoid the bottom...Luckily , aftershave will burn when it comes out , but should leave your brain blood barrier alone..
Bring on 2016...
Avoid the bottom...Luckily , aftershave will burn when it comes out , but should leave your brain blood barrier alone..
Bring on 2016...
I'll share my experience with what I thought were bottoms...... they don't mean $HIT.
Amazingly, new and terrifying ways to hurt would roll into my life as I continued down the path I was on. Each one seemed to make the last one, the one that just had to be the last one, seem like no big deal.
Bottom, as it's commonly used, is NOT the events happening in your life, the things that hurt, the things that seem so stupendously stupid or damaging. Those things happen sure enough but unless your path changes, they are not bottoms. They're just sign-posts on your particular journey through hell.
Bottom, as I see it, is maked by two things and only two things. 1. a decision is made to change direction (to take new actions, to not repeat old actions, etc). 2. we begin taking (or not taking) those actions.
The neat thing is this - anyone can make that decision and begin changing their behavior at any point. It can come after a horrible event or not. It can come after just a little pain or it can come after near death experiences. It's entirely up to the individual.
I hoped and hoped that each disaster in my life would be the last......but all I did was hope....aka "wish." I didn't really make any decisions to change. Mostly what I chose was to keep doing exactly what I wanted to do, what I felt like doing, what felt good and what made sense BUT i also searched for a way to limit the pain. I also didn't make any lasting changes. I'd change something up for a couple days, maybe a week but nothing stuck - likely a byproduct of not really making that decision in #1 in the first place.
Bottom's a decision. Make that decision, or don't make that decision. It's entirely up to you......no need to hope.
Amazingly, new and terrifying ways to hurt would roll into my life as I continued down the path I was on. Each one seemed to make the last one, the one that just had to be the last one, seem like no big deal.
Bottom, as it's commonly used, is NOT the events happening in your life, the things that hurt, the things that seem so stupendously stupid or damaging. Those things happen sure enough but unless your path changes, they are not bottoms. They're just sign-posts on your particular journey through hell.
Bottom, as I see it, is maked by two things and only two things. 1. a decision is made to change direction (to take new actions, to not repeat old actions, etc). 2. we begin taking (or not taking) those actions.
The neat thing is this - anyone can make that decision and begin changing their behavior at any point. It can come after a horrible event or not. It can come after just a little pain or it can come after near death experiences. It's entirely up to the individual.
I hoped and hoped that each disaster in my life would be the last......but all I did was hope....aka "wish." I didn't really make any decisions to change. Mostly what I chose was to keep doing exactly what I wanted to do, what I felt like doing, what felt good and what made sense BUT i also searched for a way to limit the pain. I also didn't make any lasting changes. I'd change something up for a couple days, maybe a week but nothing stuck - likely a byproduct of not really making that decision in #1 in the first place.
Bottom's a decision. Make that decision, or don't make that decision. It's entirely up to you......no need to hope.
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