Black outs Anyone had slow memory recall of a black out? An incident happened in June and its only recently Im starting to remember some but not all of what happened that night. Im not proud of myself, but pretty certain what I am starting to remember did actually did happen..... Anyone experience this? |
Absolutly I'm prone to blackout more often then not.. And often someone's face or something totally random will bring back a memory seperated by days weeks or somtimes months.. Messed up thing is my solution to minimizing blackouts was to do more stimulants ... Sterling logic hey? |
Originally Posted by Supertired
(Post 5667956)
Absolutly I'm prone to blackout more often then not.. And often someone's face or something totally random will bring back a memory seperated by days weeks or somtimes months.. Messed up thing is my solution to minimizing blackouts was to do more stimulants ... Sterling logic hey? |
I try not to think about blackouts as I normally had ppl filling me in which scared me senseless I try to forgive myself & focus on sobriety |
Yep I think it's called alcohol recall. I could only remember the night before when o was drunk again |
Originally Posted by soberwolf
(Post 5667970)
I try not to think about blackouts as I normally had ppl filling me in which scared me senseless I try to forgive myself & focus on sobriety |
Hate, hate, hate the blackouts. Being filled in on what I did/said - so embarrassing. The last one was the wakeup call one. Trying to move on from that one into sobriety. |
I had a situation where I blacked out during a conversation. I can recall standing there, and who I was with and that I was talking, but the context of the conversation is gone forever. And it was a very important conversation that I was having. |
Originally Posted by IronPhoenix
(Post 5667990)
Hate, hate, hate the blackouts. Being filled in on what I did/said - so embarrassing. The last one was the wakeup call one. Trying to move on from that one into sobriety. |
Ya totally best not to dwell too hard on the unknowns , they have drivin me to some pretty manic states.. My friends actually have a different name for blackout me ... They fill in some blanks , although I'm prone to bolting and ending up in some serious sketchy corners of this world So lucky to have escaped some pretty awful outcomes |
I just feel so stupid and ashamed. But I cant change what happened. I need to forgive myself and focus on sobriety. Just feeling **** that I willingly kissed the guy ffs. Im MARRIED. I sobered up pretty sharpish when he started to take things that little further and I said no and thank god after 3 NO's he stopped. Never ever in a million years would I had behaved like that sober, its not an excuse, no one forced me to down half a litre of vodka that night. I could kick myself. I just feel bad for kissing another man. What a complete idiot. |
Vodey always brought out such a ugly twisted version of a portion of my personality. Still working on not associating that version of myself to the sober reality. You are much more then a drunken emotional tangent |
Originally Posted by Supertired
(Post 5668007)
Vodey always brought out such a ugly twisted version of a portion of my personality. Still working on not associating that version of myself to the sober reality. You are much more then a drunken emotional tangent |
Far far too many times to recall but like you IronPhoenix the last one was the one that's changed everything - resulting in a black eye / bust nose / cut eye & chin and bust lip - no recollection and no idea how I did it but it took that and nearly getting arrested for me to realise how out of control and dangerous I can be once in said state. One I'm reminded of by mates and a video of it also was a trip to Benidorm a few years ago for a stag party - staying on a rather high floor and out of it - luckily a couple of friends stayed put as I was in a mess and they were worried about me going over the balcony - look back on things like that now and countless others of wandering the streets completely out of it and not knowing where I've been or how I've got there realising just how lucky I am that I've not been seriously injured or worse, an old friend who also drank heavily walked straight out of the pub into the road in that state and was knocked over and killed by a taxi. That bang to the head is possibly the best thing that could have happened as it's definitely knocked some sense in to me - at last !! |
: ) I think about how the lifestyle of drinking proactively augments those darker sides of ourselves.. And if I personally could put the same energy into augmenting "the better angels of our nature" what that would be like .. Haha |
You may never recall certain parts of the evening, blueberry. BUT you never have to wonder again about "what happened"or feel badly about behavior caused by alcohol. Blackouts were one of the main reasons, I gave up drinking. I've never looked back..what a relief. :) |
Originally Posted by Opivotal
(Post 5668021)
You may never recall certain parts of the evening, blueberry. BUT you never have to wonder again about "what happened"or feel badly about behavior caused by alcohol. Blackouts were one of the main reasons, I gave up drinking. I've never looked back..what a relief. :) |
Thanks guys just needed to talk it x |
Have a great evenin! |
I was shocked when I realized I was blacking out. Technically, in a blackout, you won't remember anything, ever, because your brain is no longer making memories. But, you might have been in a 'brown' out. I know I had blackouts and I have never remembered a single thing about them to this day. So scary! |
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