My mom, she just throws me away.
Its like whenever someone or something better comes along, she just throws me away like I'm a piece of garbage,
I don't have anyone other than her, I've never met my father.
I pay my own way through university, I buy her groceries, I pay all the bills to make sure she has a place to live...
She tells me what a loser I am, she even lies and says my electricity gets cut off because I'm such a dead beat, but that's not true, I have NEVER had anything cut off, she just says that.

Maybe it's time for you to put some distance in that relationship, Jen. Doesn't sound like a good one.

Sorry this is happening :hug:

I know that family can be a huge trigger, been there, done it. I used to get plastered after every trip back home. Didn't wanna be there in the first place, went mostly out of a sense of obligation. Parents can be great at creating guilt trips and at manipulation. My mom was phenomenally manipulative.

Drinking isn't going to solve anything though, but you know that.

Stay close to the forum *hugs*

Jen it doesn't have to turn into a bender. It can stop right now. You don't want to go back there. Pour it out, get some sleep and come back in the morning ok? :hug:
Xo

Jen....don't let your mother win. Don't let her dictate your sobriety.
I agree with potamus...a little distance from her sounds like a good idea.
Xo

Ok Brynn, I'm gonna go to sleep, you're right.
I'm really upset, but getting drunker isn't going to help.
I have a paper to write as well, going on a huge bender probably won't help.

Now you're talking Jen! I'm really proud of you! It's not easy putting the brakes on like that which means you are freaking awesome! :) love you sweetie :hug:

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You can break the Cycle, Jen. You're awesome that way.
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Ok, thanks guys.
I'm kinda wasted, but I poured it out and started cooking.
Sorry to be such a drama queen :(

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You would only have been a Drama Queen had you not posted here for Support, and tried to muscle through a schitte moment alone.

You Females have that advantage over us Males of being able to ask for help. OK, that, and stopping to ask for Directions when lost... :brain
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Not a drama queen at all... drama would have been not coming on here and leaving us all wonder what happened. We are all in this together. Whatcha cookin?

Thanks
Cherry pot roast, beef mushroom marsala, and a stir fry.
Amongst tears ;)

Uggghhhh... you just made my McDonald's run seem even less satisfying. Lol. :)

I'm sorry dec class ( della, Brynn, MLD)
I've just been nothing but trouble.
You all are doing so well xoxo

That was totally a post by a drunk person feeling sorry for them self.
I'll fix this tomorrow.

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Something that Bim posted today, and others nudged along, is an idea encapsulated in what is pretty much my favorite Bumper Sticker:

~ It's Never Too Late To Have A Happy Childhood ~

Once you get through tonight - Job 1 - mebbe a Mantra like that Bumper Sticker will help you with some more Healing to - as wisely mentioned above - put some healthy distance between you and those who promulgate hurt.

You mean a lot to us here, and we want you to know Inner Peace.
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(((Jen))) we're all in this together remember?? You're one of us and that means you're a badass!! :)

And don't forget to turn off your stove when you're done cooking that amazing dinner!!

It's ok, Jen. Enjoy your delicious food, and try and get some sleep. Water too :)

Ok I'm going to sleep, its only 9 pm but I've managed to accident,y drop and smash 2 wine glasses. I'm outta practice
I just need to sleep xo

Hi Jen. I'm sorry you drank and I'm glad you started cooking. Family always knows what buttons to push. Speaking as a stranger who you wouldn't know on the street, you're not a loser. So far from a loser, as a matter of fact. You're paying for your own schooling, you're paying for your mother's groceries and so that she has a roof over her head. Perhaps she's jealous and angry because of envy. Sounds to me that you've got way more on the ball than she does and she's lashing out to make herself look better. You're not a loser, girl!

Drinking won't solve that problem with your mom, unfortunately. There have been times when I got so angry and hurt I contemplated drinking. Or as someone I know comments "I'll show you! I'll hurt me!!". Eat, get some rest and move on knowing you're a great person who had to deal with a crap situation.

Venecia, what a lovely end to the day! I'm glad you had a good time.

I'm getting ready to start my getting ready for bed. Not quite there yet.

Hugs, Jen. Be careful cooking.

xoxo

That is so sweet.