Hope from hopelessness
 

For the last couple of months I've been posting pretty regularly since I decided to stop drinking. I can say that I was a very pessimistic person. I still am in a lot of ways, but it's pretty crazy how staying off of the devils nectar has turned the tides. I never had hope in anything. I know it sounds sad and depressing. I just always expected the worse outcome from situations regardless of what they were. These last few months since going to IOP(I graduate on November 2nd) has changed my life around. I wake up without booze on my mind. I'm a bit more confident. My wife has done a 180 as I'm gaining her trust back and shes less anxious about who is going to come home...the person she married or the drunk and belligerent jerk? As I see things changing around me it does give me a sense of hope that maybe things will work out in my life.

I don't miss drinking. I even question why didn't I do this sooner. I could've avoided a lot of heartache and saved a lot of money doing other things in my life. Alcohol has caused me a lot of trouble. I just HOPE everything works out in the end!

I'm sure everything will work out. Congratulations.

GetRight have you heard of Brené Brown's book daring greatly ?

Well done Getright15. :You_Rock_

That's so good to hear, Getright. If I remember correctly, at the beginning of IOP you weren't sure if it was the right choice for you and now look! I had a similar experience with the program I attended. It's why I try to encourage people to stick it out.

Heck yeah! Stay strong and focused. Remember how bad things were and how you never want to experience those times again.

I'm glad your situation and outlook are improving getright.

Your description of yourself as a "drunk and belligerent jerk" would have exactly summed me up too when I was drinking so I totally get how you are feeling

No I haven't but I'll check that out.

I was just more nervous about going to IOP than anything. I'm glad I made the choice to do it. Even better that nobody made me do it.

I'm glad all the hard work of recovery is paying off for you getright.