Hope from hopelessness
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Hope from hopelessness
For the last couple of months I've been posting pretty regularly since I decided to stop drinking. I can say that I was a very pessimistic person. I still am in a lot of ways, but it's pretty crazy how staying off of the devils nectar has turned the tides. I never had hope in anything. I know it sounds sad and depressing. I just always expected the worse outcome from situations regardless of what they were. These last few months since going to IOP(I graduate on November 2nd) has changed my life around. I wake up without booze on my mind. I'm a bit more confident. My wife has done a 180 as I'm gaining her trust back and shes less anxious about who is going to come home...the person she married or the drunk and belligerent jerk? As I see things changing around me it does give me a sense of hope that maybe things will work out in my life.
I don't miss drinking. I even question why didn't I do this sooner. I could've avoided a lot of heartache and saved a lot of money doing other things in my life. Alcohol has caused me a lot of trouble. I just HOPE everything works out in the end!
I don't miss drinking. I even question why didn't I do this sooner. I could've avoided a lot of heartache and saved a lot of money doing other things in my life. Alcohol has caused me a lot of trouble. I just HOPE everything works out in the end!
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That's so good to hear, Getright. If I remember correctly, at the beginning of IOP you weren't sure if it was the right choice for you and now look! I had a similar experience with the program I attended. It's why I try to encourage people to stick it out.
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I'm glad your situation and outlook are improving getright.
Your description of yourself as a "drunk and belligerent jerk" would have exactly summed me up too when I was drinking so I totally get how you are feeling
Your description of yourself as a "drunk and belligerent jerk" would have exactly summed me up too when I was drinking so I totally get how you are feeling
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I was just more nervous about going to IOP than anything. I'm glad I made the choice to do it. Even better that nobody made me do it.
Originally Posted by Saskia 
That's so good to hear, Getright. If I remember correctly, at the beginning of IOP you weren't sure if it was the right choice for you and now look! I had a similar experience with the program I attended. It's why I try to encourage people to stick it out.
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