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Flipped already! Well done on shotgun Melina. Lots of anniversaries: Congratulations to Ruby, Sao and Della. Sorry if I missed anyone. Got a good nights sleep last night. Mrs B is bringing her father and wife to do touristy/shopping things in town today. They are going to come to our house later for dinner. House is a mess with baby stuff in piles! Catch ye later folks, B |
Why oh why am I up?? Dog is a poop head!! We really will be early risers once we set the clocks back. |
Up at my usual time and feeling improved. Had a freaky dream last night. I was pregnant with another baby, with my ex-husband. It was a girl and I was going to name her Kate. Okay, I'm 52. My tubes are tied. Where in the heck did THAT come from?? |
. Clearly, your Dream morphed from Della's wonderful Anniversary of 9 Months. I was gonna congratulate her yesterday on being 9 Months in vs. - well, you know - 9 months of something else. 52 years old. Tubes Tied. You simply wake up, and you're no longer Pregnant. How kewl is that? :scared: Congrats, too, on Sao and Ruby's achievements. I think I was mulling over, in my Mental Background, all the abandoned Houses in S. Chicago, and the evaporated Dreams in so many of them. When the Roof is removed from a Building in Scotland, it is no longer on the Tax Rolls. Not that Churches there are Taxed, but below is one example of this on Islay, off the West Coast of the Mainland. I spent all day mucking with my Stereo. Intermittent, weird problems and connections that I think I got sorted out. Several large Boxes holding my Studio Monitor Speakers disappeared from the Great Room, here, so Da Wife was happy. I sat out under the Porch, and enjoyed some crisp Temps as some Sprinkles blew through. The Pooch is well. We're all well. http://i58.tinypic.com/2h58wur.jpg . |
Good morning everyone. Well MLD, you are in a sense giving birth to a whole new girl by living in sobriety and it's 10 months for you. That would be about the end of 40 weeks of pregnancy. Good luck with your continued box purging Mesa. I hope you sort out the stereo dilemma. Melina it's great that you backed up your photo files and texts. I'd be very sad if my pics suddenly disappeared. I've been debating on actually trading up on phones without actually needing to just to have a better camera. Good luck with phone shopping. Time to roll on here. Time to get ready. |
Hey, Ruby - that might just be it. I hate to think it's my subconscious telling me anything else - like that I actually WANT a baby or to get back together with my ex. Both ideas make me want to shriek and pull my hair out. |
Oh, and when I was younger I hated my name and wanted to be called Kate. And have green eyes. In my dream I somehow knew the baby would have strawberry blond hair and green eyes. |
Neat church and glad your dogs ok, Mesa. And happy to hear you're feeling better Marty! Delirious dreaming is what I call that since you were sick. Dreaming of exes is frightening! Why'd you have to remind us of setting our clocks back? :( only part of fall I hate. |
Good morning eveyone! we are getting through the week. MLD that dream sounds like it shook you up. I agree with the rebirth analysis. It's actually a good dream. drinking coffee and trying to wake up. Then morning walk and off to work. So far it's a good week. Cravings come and go...crazy since I'll have 20 months tomorrow. It's just the way it is. |
Since we've been talking mysteries, bodies in canals. This is appropriate. |
Mesa, thanks for the picture of the Church. That's cool. I think about houses and dreams. The house that my great grandparents lived in was vacant and on the market not too long ago. It sold in June for $16,000. Sad. The house is over 120 years old. From the Zillow pics, the original kitchen cabinets were still there but the old porcelain sink with drainboard and claw foot tub and radiators were all gone. My living room furniture used to grace that house. I have happy memories of playing there. Time to focus on work. |
Afternoon everyone |
Hi SW. What's good today? |
Never mind. Just realized it's 'spring forward' I hate. Isn't that the one where you lose an hour? Oh well...carry on. |
Ruby...I've got some of my granny's furniture and some of my great grandmothers stuff too....good warm memories attached to those things. |
Yeah, Brynn - I was wondering how you could hate gaining an hour. :) |
One thing for sure, I need about 8 hours of sleep, cause whatever time I go to sleep, I wake up 8 hours later - like 1030 today. congratulations MLD on the birth of you new... SELF! 9 months Della! I'll tell you what's weird, the night after my fish dream I had a hunting dream. Not as nutty as the fish dream, very realistic... And then I discover that the 'lectric to my freezer was out a day later. hmmmmm Melina, I didn't think about it at the time I read your phone post - had to laugh. But when I discovered that all of my frozen meat had UNfrozen I didn't even get mad, throw a fit or anything except deal with the situation in the moment. I check everything - still cold. I grabbed a sample and checked it. In the 'past' that would have been at least a six pack and couple long swigs from my basement bottle in about an hour Oh, I could drink a sixpack in less than hour - too many times. And I kept a jug in the basement AND one in the garage - saved me steps. I was amazed after the fact that I reacted no differently than if I had dropped a clean spoon on the floor. Now THAT is amazing. I was prepared to dump over 30 lbs of select venison. And just accept it. Of course anything that wasn't vacuum sealed had to be let go, only a couple items. done my oats... gotta dump water outside today and lot's more. Spent a 1/2 hour on chords before coffee was made. If I could get into the music practice the way I got into the drinking practice I'd be a virtuoso by now... baby steps. I think Arthur may have something to say about it though. Arthur Itus? The finger (left index) I almost cut off is starting to complain a lot. Have a great day all. |
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Melina, I didn't think about it at the time I read your phone post - had to laugh. But when I discovered that all of my frozen meat had UNfrozen I didn't even get mad, throw a fit or anything except deal with the situation in the moment. I check everything - still cold. I grabbed a sample and checked it. In the 'past' that would have been at least a six pack and couple long swigs from my basement bottle in about an hour Oh, I could drink a sixpack in less than hour - too many times. And I kept a jug in the basement AND one in the garage - saved me steps. I was amazed after the fact that I reacted no differently than if I had dropped a clean spoon on the floor. Now THAT is amazing. I was prepared to dump over 30 lbs of select venison. And just accept it. Of course anything that wasn't vacuum sealed had to be let go, only a couple items. I'm going to say I'm not a psycho and that I can cross hacking up a cell phone off my bucket list hahaha! I was. Kind of mad at the phone so I had to show it who's boss. Ok clearly I have more issues heehee! Ruby, you made me think a lot about those houses, too. I haven't googled them yet but are they off 290? I haven't seen them. Like Mesa said, the evaporated dreams and all. After my grandma passed, I was given my grandparent's bedroom furniture that I always loved as a little girl. I couldn't fit in a sober weekend to go pick it up five hours away so I justified having someone donate it. I made my sister go into detail about the damage to it so I wouldn't feel bad. Ok time to go buy a new phone. I've always been an android chick, I think I'm going to do the iPhone thing so I can finally get coherent group texts from my family. You guys are great, keep smiling! |
Ruby's houses made me think of this poem we studied in high school. Harlem -Langston Hughes What happens to a dream deferred? Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? Or fester like a sore— And then run? Does it stink like rotten meat? Or crust and sugar over— like a syrupy sweet? Maybe it just sags like a heavy load. Or does it explode? |
hm. Note to self. *Check on the time-change date.* Like it matters. The only clocks I use are my computer and my iPhone. Cripes. I have to change ISPs. Mine will be out of business on Nov 6. I've put this off just about as long as is possible - they told us six months ago. I went for a tour of a new church yesterday. They were really nice, but I still have my reservations about church. I'm pretty alone in life, though, so I think I need somewhere I can be of service with face-to-face live humans. Not that I don't really like my interweb pals. What was that line from the movie? I need people with skin. So I think I'll go on Sunday and see what it's all about. Two minutes from my house, medium size congregation. |
Sounds good Bimini. Sometimes I wish I didn't have so much interaction with people with skin. I find myself pulling away when people start depending on me too much. Need to work on that I suppose. Eating lunch on the patio. It's beautiful today even though its sunny! :) Don't think I mentioned this but I've asked mr brynn to move out. The timing sucks because I'm unemployed and starting school in January but I can't ignore the writing on the wall any longer. Anyway....thanks to my late husband I'll be ok financially if I can find a part time job and be somewhat frugal. The guilt is what's eating at me most though. He's already blaming his drinking again on me dumping him when he needs me most. Although I'm pretty sure he was drinking before I ever dumped him. And as long as he's drinking he's got to have his coke chaser. Found that when I came home this weekend. Yay. Yes Melina....keep smiling! |
Oh, Brynn, good for you! I know that congratulations on a decision like that seems weird but it's so hard and so necessary. Absolutely don't fall for his feel sorry for me, I'm drinking because you're kicking me out, crap. You know him well enough to know he was using and drinking even before then. You'll be just fine once he's out. Now if only I could muster the courage and resolve you did. Way to go! Bimini, it's so hard picking a new or any church. We just switched and I still feel guilty. The other church had far too few people. And three other kids. The new one had tons of kids and actual Sunday school. The only problem is it's not in my neighborhood. Check it out. Lunch break. I brought chicken and noodles but have a taste for salad so one of the guts is picking one up for me. Melina, those houses are just east and just west of the Dan Ryan. My great grandparents house is close to the lake in South Shore. |
You are not the cause of his drinking Brynn. You said before he did his IP that you weren't very confident. He cannot put that on you Ruby, hopefully with a $16,000 sale price someone will give it a new lease of life (or are you expecting it to be demolished and replaced) Well done for reacting like grown up LB, when things like that happened to me when I was drinking (and let's face it minor annoyances are a fact of life) I would always use it as an excuse for a booze filled pity party Good luck with the phone hunt Melina Ditto for finding a new ISP Bim Kind of a damp squib of a day here in several ways. Lousy weather plus I had to spend some of my time consoling Dizzee at work (she has dismal taste in men - I don't know where she finds them) She is 30 yrs old and gets through half a dozen totally unsuitable men annually. On the plus side it meant that she was to upset to make tea (she makes the worst tea ever - I haven't the heart to tell her) :) |
brynn - hugs, it's a tough decision you made but you have to do what is in your best interest, sending you good vibes and love... I don't have many people with skin in my life - just one really... but I am able to focus on myself and the many things I neglected over the years.. I still have a long way to go but I am surely keeping busy... I've been wanting to GET out of this house for a while, among the plethora of reasons this just happened... I was out raking dirt/mud and decided to come in for a water.... as I came around to the front a new neighbor came out of the house with her two little ones,.. I hear, I'm gonna kill you followed by what the F is wrong with you, don't effin argue with me ETC. The little guy looked to be about 4 years old tops. And the older one (maybe 6) got a bit as well... And it was probably heard about a block away... NICE eh? I made a salad and some meat with peppers and onions and brown rice earlier - my midday snack in a couple hours. The wife just had a revelation and told me that people who live longer healthier lives don't consume animal fat. Yeah, I already knew that... I also discovered that coconut oil is just as unhealthy as pure animal fat - :dee |
a quick funny for the day... I poured the queen a cup of coffee in her 'college' mug. She refused to drink out of that mug - I don't like that mug. Why? They gave me a B- in one of my classes. So I'm not drinking out of it. She sure showed them :lmao Hopefully she gets all 'As' in the next courses. Can't imagine what she'll do next... |
Thanks for the support y'all. And Ruby...this would've been much harder if kids were involved. Sao....I feel a kindred spirit with Dizzee. She probably finds her men in bars like the rest of us. Blah! (and her tea making plight made me smile) :) Brain....I've never cooked with coconut oil but I use it on my hair ....it's all the rage for hair and skin care. Try it on your 'do' ....maybe you'll live longer and you won't waste a perfectly good tub of oil! :) |
You can take my animal fat and coconut oil away from me over my dead body, Mrs LB. Yeah, so, church. So many things going through my head. I've tried this before and it has never gone well. Most people at churches are families. No family here. I usually get the sad/pitying looks from people and that just rubs me the wrong way. All the churches have some part of their doctrine as marriage being the goal. Well, been there done that too. Churches are patriarchal. No way around that. I'm already talking myself out of it. I've been doing online research and I don't know if it's really for me. So. Many. Rules. Alcoholics hate rules. That's why they're alkies, right? I'm really conflicted right now. Will someone please yank me out of my damn head? |
p.s. Sorry, brynn I stepped all over your story about Mr brynn. I'm glad you have the ability to take care of yourself financially. Wanna go to this patriarchal church with me? |
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