Some helpful feedback, Rosie. I'd join in recommending you join your class here on SR. It is on the Newcomers Forum -- The Class of June 2015. I'm a huge advocate for joining our classes here.

You can do this.

The problem with worse things happening, and they will, we will continue to drink to blot it out. Quit now. Let it be a rational goal this abstinence thing. Nothing to be gained by continued digging but a deeper hole. Best wishes.