I do things that addicts do
 

Sneak drinks when others aren't looking.

Drink before drinking events.

Drink before non-drinking events.

Try to get others to drink as much as I am.

Underplay how much I drank.

Stay sick in bed for a day, wishing I had two days to recover.

Ignore my phone for days after drinking, afraid to see what's on there.

Avoid people I may have been drunk around for days, weeks, months because I'm so ashamed that I don't remember what I said or did with them.

Tell myself I'll never do it again... and then do it again.

Try to tell myself I don't have a problem...

Hate myself.

I have a problem. No matter what I tell myself, no matter what my friends or family would tell me, I do. That's why I'm here today. Day 16.

What a coincidence - I do those things too. :) All that and more. Congrats on your 16 hard-earned days KT. PA people are tough - you're doing this thing.

Hmm, I've done all of those things too. :)

Good for you on Day 16.

Sounds familiar

Congrats on day 16

PS, I guess I should have phrased this, I DID things that addicts do :) hopefully, I won't do those things again!

Of course you won't KT. :)

so true. wow.

Ack! Are you a mind reader? How did you know all that? :e052:

DITTO on all of the above.... Way to go KT 16 days...keep adding up those 24's.

Ugh, the worst part is that the list goes on and on...

Funny how long it's taken me to see it? Someone actually commented on something I said on a different thread recently about the cell phone thing, and how that's something that addicts do. That really hit a nerve. Like, REALLY shook me up. I've known I have problems drinking for a while, but an addict? Me?

It's kind of hard, reconciling the idea of addiction when I wasn't an every day drinker. Not even an every week drinker! But I AM an addict, as soon as it hits my lips, I can't stop. And if I do stop, I'm not happy about it. So I need to not start. It has so far proven to be the ONLY way to control my addiction.

Whoever said the thing that helped me look at my problem in a different light, thank you. It hurt to hear, it hurt to think, but it is a good kind of hurt. A truthful kind.

I relate to everything you listed. I dread looking at my phone after a night of drinking. I become a total a-hole when I drink and tend to send out texts and make calls that I regret the next day. when soBer, I hardly bother at all with my phone/social media

Congrats on Day 16.

I can relate to every single thing you posted. Isn't it amazing to know you will never feel that way again.

A good post! Yip, I recognise all of it (maybe except the phone thing). Amazing, that we all tried to hide these 'traits' - through i guess shame or embarrassment? ...and here we all are - together 'out in the open' agreeing we see ourselves in the list...

me too !!!! congrats on 16 days

Congrats on 16 hard earned days my fellow Pennsylvanian!

Congrats on day 16! Nice post as well, and I can definitely relate. Hell, I moved to the other side of the world to avoid life, so I could sit around and drink every day instead.