What was so terrible about the job interview, Tetra.? Maybe a clue in how you reacted to this that led up to the decision to drink. Perhaps the shame was already there? We can be so hard on ourselves.

You see more negative than positive in yourself....we don't.
It happened. Pick yourself up and move forward, don't dwell. Stop crying over it, you will be stronger next time.

How was your weekend, Tetra?

Hi tetra, I'm sorry you had a bad interview and I'm sorry you drank. Hop back on. Don't beat yourself up. Before my last relapse I was headed in that direction because I stopped doing the things I knew I needed to do. It wasn't a single bad event alone that pushed me to drink. That was only the reason I needed.

It was at that point I added SR to the other things I was doing and its working for me better this time. Tweak it and work it. You had seven months. A lot of people don't even get that.

All the guilt and shame in the world won't undo the past Tetra.
Use that energy to make the most of your today :)

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It never seemed that I had much choice about my feelings (intrigued that you asked ´should´i feel . . . ´). however, I spent a lot of time dwelling upon and analysing them. Didn´t help me much - or at all, ever.

I was able to see things more roundedly only after I removed alcohol from the equation. of course, this seemed extremely difficult at first but (I have come to believe) in the end, we choose this view. I tend to regard alcohol as just something I don´t have to do anymore.