Coming up on 4 months
 

I don't count days, but I knew it had been awhile so I went and checked, and February 5th will be 4 months for me.

I read the post i made when I came back seeking help, and OMG what a difference. things are not perfect, things are not easy. But I look back on that post, and I can feel how I felt that day.

No matter how hard I think my day is, how bored I am, or how much I think I can have one drink again... it is 1,000 times better than that hell I was in.

I won't check my time again until the end of next summer, because at a year sober I am going to start drinking again. KIDDING! At a year I am going to open myself up to relationships. For now I am just working on myself and that is fine.

Thank you friends, I would never had made it without you guys supporting me, and all of us seeking the path we deserve to be on.

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Great post, Mikie!!!!!!

1,000 times better rocks.

Mikie9 good for you! four months what's changed for the better, do tell?

Congrats on your upcoming 4 months Mikie

This is awesome!

More power to you Mikie!

Inspiring post! Love it!

Great job!!

Well, things that are better and help me get through the times I want to hide away again.

The best things, that are often overlooked in early sobriety are:

I eat. It isn't just something I HAVE to do, I enjoy it now. I am a thin guy by nature, but not eating at all was killing me along with the beer and drugs.

I sleep. Even on nights I have trouble sleeping, I awake feeling better than I did after a night of 12 beers and pot.

Exercise. I do so because i have energy again. It isn't something I think about, or "need" to do, I just do. Natural for me now that I think about it.

Restroom happenings. Well I won't go into detail, but things are normal again.

Housekeeping. It just happens now. It isn't something I "do", it isn't an activity. It is just part of my day now.

How I view myself, and others. I am my original self now, in that I am clear headed and can speak/relate to others. I may not be perfect, but at least now I am me.

I get to be bored again. Being bored used to be a trigger, now it is an opportunity to do something, or plan to do something. Before, boredom meant drinking, and then I did nothing. For days and days and days.

Everything is better, and it will keep getting better as long as I wake up rested, have a plan on how to spend my time today, and if nothing else, rest. At 42 years of age after 20+ years of drinking and smoking pot as a hobby, rest is important to me. I am a hyper sort though so it doesn't come up much, but when i get ansy and don't know what to do, I lay down and let it pass.

Oh yeah, and I am funny again. Well I think so anyways :) I am not drunk, so I don't have to watch my mouth as much anymore, or apologize. Well maybe I should sometimes, nbut I am not mean, some people are just sissies :p

The ultimate best thing about it is, I don't hate myself anymore, and THAT is what has opened up more doors for me than I know what to do with. Challenge accepted :)

Four months is wonderful Mikie. :) You sound great, and things will continue to get even better.

Congrats Mikie :)

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Way to go Mikie - I remember you from some of your older posts, so great to see you back and doing things right this time around. Congrats on 4 months!

Congrats Mike! Coming up on 4 months is awesome! Keep up the great work!!

4 months is brilliant - well done on all your hard work.

Great stuff Mikie!! :scoregood

Congrats and thanks for providing the details on your recovery journey. It gives me hope. I like your style of recovery I wish you the best in everything.

Mikie that's so good to hear :) How cool, imagine what it will be like in six months, and beyond!

Fabulous post, Mikie.

Congrats!

Thanks guys. I am trying to be sure to come on here for a bit each evening and do my best to help others. Last year when I became sober, I let SR go because I was "fixed"... I at least learned that I am never going to be "fixed", but I can stop drinking and feel ok in the fact that I don;t want to get drunk again. I didn't fall of the wagon, I JUMPED!!! lol

This time around I am firmly in my seat, seatbelt fastened and reaching my hand out to anyone wanting to come aboard. I am even going to volunteer at the local homeless shelter starting this weekend. I just feel I need to keep myself humble, and remind myself I am fragile like everyone else.