40 days I have 40 days of sobriety today. It's a bit hard to say how I feel. It's been a roller coaster. I'm thankful I no longer have to plan my life around being hung over and that I don't have to struggle with that trapped feeling that I'm either drunk or dealing with the aftermath. That gives me a feeling of freedom. The sobriety work isn't always easy. I often feel fragile, uncertain and anxious as I learn to navigate life without using alcohol as a crutch. Earlier today I was walking home from work reading SR posts on my phone and was feeling kind of jazzed up that I didn't have to deal with the cravings that some people post about, and then not a minute later I walked by a liquor store and something in my brain clicked and every fibre of my being yearned for me to go inside and buy some holiday cheer. It left me a bit shaken to see how quickly things could go sideways. I'm in this for the long haul, and I'm glad to be here with you all. |
Great work Lance, and congrats on staying strong at the store. |
Great job on 40 days!! Well done! |
Well done on forty days, and thank you for your post. I'm glad you kept walking on by the liquor store. You do never know when temptation will strike. |
Good for you riding out that craving, I definitely remember feeling like I'm free, and then not 2 hours later being driven mad by thoughts of drinking. It will get easier, it just takes time. If you're anything like me, you will be breathing a big sigh of relief after the Holidaze are over! |
way to go Lance, good job on 40 days. |
Congrats on 40 days, Lance. We are glad that you are here, too. |
Congratulations on 40 days !!!!! |
Way to stay strong and fight the AV! Congrats on 40 days! |
jazzed up that I didn't have to deal with the cravings that some people post about, and then not a minute later I walked by a liquor store and something in my brain clicked and every fibre of my being yearned for me to go inside and buy some holiday cheer. It left me a bit shaken to see how quickly things could go sideways. yes. the suddenness of it... but what i took from that is also this positive: something in the brain clicks, and turns over, and the sudden 'gottahavegottahavedrinkdrinkdrink' isn't real in a real sense. okay, weird sentence. it 'feels' real while you're in it. but it's just a click-turn of the brain. it's automatic. it doesn't need to 'mean' anything. and it certainly doesn't require you to buy the stuff. as you know.:) keep going. |
Originally Posted by fini
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yes. the suddenness of it... but what i took from that is also this positive: something in the brain clicks, and turns over, and the sudden 'gottahavegottahavedrinkdrinkdrink' isn't real in a real sense. okay, weird sentence. it 'feels' real while you're in it. but it's just a click-turn of the brain. it's automatic. it doesn't need to 'mean' anything. and it certainly doesn't require you to buy the stuff. as you know.:) keep going. |
Wow Lance, 40 days already! I've been following your progress and am so happy for you. Well done sir. |
Originally Posted by fromadistance
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Wow Lance, 40 days already! I've been following your progress and am so happy for you. Well done sir. |
40 days is great progress! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. |
Lance. I'm right around the same amount of time sober and I totally agree with you about often feeling fragile, uncertain and anxious. But i am feeling less and less of this ad time goes on. It's comforting to me to see someone going through the same battles I fught |
Well done Lance, my friend :hug: Congratulations to you on 40 days, that is awesome ! You're doing so great ! :) |
awesome Lance - well done :) D |
Well done Lance |
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