My family drinks a lot so I guess I thought it was normal at a young age.

I drink because I like it. I like the social aspect of it.

I have a little adhd so it mellows me out.

I don't know why I can't have two and then stop though. That's a mystery to me.

I had a great childhood but I think I have suffered from mild depression (untreated) through my adult life.

I drank because I loved the buzz. I loved that it made every night seem like an occasion. I liked it when people would drink with me. It was a social thing whether at home or at a bar. After turning 21, bars seemed like a whole new world that stayed open late and I have always been a night person.

I truly enjoyed drinking every night for about five years. I just liked the relaxation and it also helped me to fall asleep.

The last four years were physical pains, headaches, stomach pains, daily withdrawal, and a steadily increasing quantity until the it took a huge amount of alcohol to get me drunk. Then there's the blackouts.....

The last year I didn't even enjoy it anymore at all. I couldn't recreate that buzz that I wanted every night. Finally, it brought only pain and no relief so I stopped.

I was a miserable git and couldn't deal with stress or upset from a very early age. I thought it was the answer for a time but it really wasn't. I had to change everything about myself and my thinking xxx