On Day 2 AGAIN - One Day at a Time - Easy Does It.
 

Hey everyone,

Well I've decided that I need a change. The last two years about this time I've have given it a shot. I need to be more persistent. There is a better life in sobriety I know. No more flaking on friends because I have a bottle in my mouth, lying to coworkers about fake appts so I can go home to either drink or recover or feeling like a nervous wreck at work ready for a breakdown because of the anxiety.

I went 16 days cold turkey back in 2012 when I was homeless living in a hotel an then Easter came along and I decided to celebrate. Well bottle after bottle of rum and six pack later I managed to land a job and commuted from the Colorado forest living in a campground and showering at work while after work downing a pint of rum and a six pack that night before doing it over and over again for about six months before a major bender on a weekend. I came into work that April Day about a year ago knowing I had a deadline..was hungover and mentally exhausted. I broke down in front of some people at work and a co-worker was nice enough to bring me to the hospital with a 185/130 blood pressure and feeling at my wits end. After relaxing at the hospital they drove me to detox where the door slammed shut. Hours later I pleaded with the guy I needed to get to work the next morning so they let me out. I showed up at work the next morning to everyones surprise. My co-worker helped me find AA and I went 30 days sober. I got the chip and a couple days later saw the pub and thought I could handle it. ****ck. Since then I've been able to "maintain" and wean down to a 50ml rum and 6-8 beers per night but what kind of life is that? I still make the fake appointment excuses, flake on friends, had those feelings of anxiety at work and get intoxicated on the weekends out of control.

There is a better life and I'm really working at it. Attended AA yesterday and was so comforted to hear the stories and how I related to everyone. I have a big case of the YETS. So I'm on Day 2 thanks for listening everyone!

Welcome back! You know there is lots of support here. Stay strong, make a plan and best of luck to you. It took me a few tries as well.

Welcome back! Congrats on getting through your first day! One day at a time!

Welcome back! I live in the mountains of Colorado and can't imagine camping in the cold and snow, even with the sunny days. Glad you are here.

Welcome back xxx

Two days is wonderful. Keep up the good work.

Comtnman,

Welcome back and congrats!

Just don't pick up that first drink.

You'll get there if you really try.

Welcome back, comtnmn. Congrats on your two sober days. Glad to hear that you found AA helpful. We are here to help each other; keep on posting.

Glad you're back giving it another go. :) I hope this attempt is your successful one. :)

Thanks for the well wishes everyone! I'm on day 3 and just trying to keep busy. I have found that I'm up much earlier now and get to work much earlier so I can enjoy the late afternoon/evening. I like that. I'm dreading tomorrow because I know it's Friday but I just keep telling myself to take One Day at a Time. I plan on going to another meeting tonight.

You're doing good!

Keep it going................... :)