Where I've been & Where I'm at today.
 

About a month or so ago I made the decision that I wasn't done using. I told myself things would be different this time, and I actually believed myself.

I started out doing the usual, DXM, several times a week, and also sniffing my prescription medication almost every day. I was already feeling miserable, but at that point it was too late for me.

After a few weeks of this I knew it wasn't enough. One night, I planned on staying out for the night and a man whom I never met came and picked me up and that night I ended up shooting crystal meth. All bets were off after that first slam. My "one night out" turned into a week long binge on crystal, and I was mixing it with other drugs such as xanax, alcohol, vicodin, tramadol, and ambien. In order for me to keep getting the drugs I had to sell my body, and any slef-respect that i had left in me was gone. By the end of the week I was in some motel in south carolina(started out in buffalo NY) I lost at least 10 pounds, I didn't sleep for that entire week, my face was broken out and scabbed from me picking at it, I was a complete mess and I felt like I lost my mind.

And to make things worse, this ENITRE time, my family had no clue where I was; whether I was alive or dead. There was a missing persons report out for me and a PINS warrent and I ended up calling the police and turning myself in and I went to jail in south carolina for 4 days.. When I got out and went back to NY I went to jail AGAIN because I missed court while I was gone and had a bench warrent out for me. I spent the LONGEST 11 days of my life in the holding center but It really gave me time to think and evaluate my life and where I went wrong and what I need to do differently.. It was in there that I finally realized that I deserve better than this life I've been living. I was released from jail on Monday.

Today I have 23 days clean, and I feel grateful. I've reconnected with my sponsor and my friends in NA. I go to a meeting and work my program to the best of my ability on a daily basis. And even though it hasn't even been a week since I've been out, I can feel my life heading in a positive direction, and you'll all see me around here a lot more often! :)

Thanks for reading.

Hope to see you round more often Jake ,

Glad you're back , m

I'm so glad you made it through that alive! You do deserve a better life. I look forward to seeing you around here more! Congrats on 23 days!:)

Jakec, 23 days is FANTASTIC. Congratulations. Rootin for ya. :egypt:

I am glad you got through that in one piece jake.

Concrats on the 23 days.

You deserve a lot better jake – take that life back.

Crystal meth is nasty stuff; I'm glad you are away from it. Stay connected to your support system. Glad you are back!

Hope it all works out. Keep on workin it

Jake, I'm glad you lived to tell the tale. Very scary.

I had to be brought to my knees to stop too. I knew in my heart where I was headed, but I guess I needed further convincing. Sorry for all you've been through, but proud of you for coming here & talking about it. Now you can start down the road to your new life. We're with you.

I'm glad to hear from you jake :)
I really hope you're done with it all - you deserve better

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Glad you're back and determined to stay clean. :)

Welcome back, Jake! Please don't stray very far and just take one day at a time. The days do add up!!!