and who are you to say who is lookin up to you and who isn't? wouldn't you rather have people look across at you?
why in the world would you try to live up to my expectaions beings how I don't have any expectations? of course I would like to see ya get sober, but I don't have any expectations.

whats all BS?

theres a problem I always had by takin a roadtrip and thinkin things through:
I took me with me and using my thinkin, which is what got me to where I was. my thinkin sucked and wasn't gonna help me for crap. I had to have the assistance of the thinkin of other
you can keep livin in the problem or start livin in the solution, lookin through past threads of yours, you have been given a LOT of great suggestions. its up to you to put in the footwork.
sittin in the garage all day aint gonna make ya a car.

its your choice and I hope ya make the choice to stop playin Russian roulette.

Riky

You go! Good for you!!!!

Hi TR,
My thoughts are with you today. Man, how many of us have had a 1000 day ones? I do look up to you, as alpha stated so well, so deal! lol. Have a great camping trip and stay out of your head my friend. I'll do the same.

Your Pal,
Cas

Hugs TR, thinking of you. Hang in there friend.

Hey Ricky, Just wanted to tell you "have a wonderful day" go out and enjoy it! Don't be so hard on yourself, enjoy the camping trip! TF

Tr-We don't shoot our wounded. You're having longer stretches of not using and you keep trying. That is awesome!

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

Maribell

Keep posting. SR can help you, support you, be there for you 24 hours a day. Just take that one giant step. One day sober...then again...then again...

Post, post,post!!!

Just keep at it triky; most, if not all of us have been where you are right now. This time try to do it for you, and not to live up to the expectations of others. We can never meet the expectations of everyone. It's impossible, and pure folly to try. Just attempt to live a life you deem as good and decent.

And try to learn something from each relapse. What could you have done differently? What can you change now that will help you avoid a repeat?

Yeah, don't ever ever give up on quitting your addiction. There is always a way forward. Quitting is the first and most important next right thing to do no matter whatever else is going down.

Quitting works even for those that have had failure after failure with quitting. Doesn't matter. Quitting still remains the best choice for getting it right with ourselves for those of us who have been or are addicted. Either way quitting works.

:)

I got totally burned out with myself
 

for me, the harder i tried, the more i screwed up, it is when i loosened my clutch, put it down, surrendered and said, "I can't do this, Lord help me"

a question was asked of a TV repairman, "in your experience, what's the worse problem you have seen", he responded "when people try to do their own repairs and fix the set themselves..."

i'm just not gonna drink today, i really hope you don't either. thanks for your honesty and the post, it helped me.:tyou

Dear riky, You are to be admired for your honesty. For acknowledging the problem. For coming here. For seeking answers. For continuing on your journey. :ring

thanks the support means the world to me !

I'm not gonna drink today .. One day at a time ..thanks for your support .. Ive been trying to fix myself for years .. And yes the harder I try .. It seems be worse I get.

Thanks .. Already feeling the love and support ,, gives me tremendous hope :)

Good for the Maribell!!!!

Not giving up on you Triky. Not ever. :)

Thanks to all that responded. You all have left something with me . I am so grateful to have you all as friends.

I did go camping but had to come home tonight , after slipping at the pool and twisting my ankle . I was able to enjoy the day up until that. :yup:

Tr

Riky I remember reading a post of yours a while back where I picked up on the fact that we are the same age -- a little commonality. The one thing that has worked for me this time has been doing 24 hours at a time. In the beginning I stopped looked down the path of weeks, months and years, instead I got on with the next 24 hours only. In 24 hours I'll have six months. You can do it too Riky.

Hi trikyriky, no worries, just gotta pick up the pieces and get back on the sober train :) Figure out exactly what led to the relapse, like really start studying your triggers so you can avoid them or at least expect them and have a plan when they hit you.

I noticed you said you thought "just for today..." A lot of alcoholics find it helpful to recognize that that's the Addictive Voice lying to you. When you hear that, remind yourself no, it's not just for today. It's going to end up a 3-day bender and then I'm going to go through hell-on-earth withdrawals. Start following the entire episode all the way through. Start associating alcohol, the liquor section in the store, etc. with ALL the negatives that go along with drinking.

This has been helpful for me and the negatives always outweigh the benefits ten-fold when it comes to drinking.

Aw, I hope your ankle gets better soon Riky. :)

I just realized I was really replying to this quote. But I think the thinking things through really applies to anyone that is struggling with addiction :)

Forgive me for being confused, I am extremely tired and it's my bed time. Trikyriky I am sending thoughts and positive vibes your way. Hoping you are well today. <3

Riky, you can do this. Prayers your way

Kristy, I like the way you put that. I'm on day 6. I don't want to ever live through those first 50 hours again. I was sure I was going to die.