It's all bs
It's all bs
People like me , they tell me they look up to me, don't. It's all bs. I've tried to , live up to your expectations , your desire for me to beat this and I have not. It's bigger than I ever thought, too big for me ? Day 1 for the umteenth time. I'll try to remember , those 19 days . Too get back there . I will damit. I will. I will not quit trying , know that.
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Hey Riky. I still like you, and I still want you to succeed very much. I don't think there's one of us here who doesn't.
The desire to succeed must come from you first and foremost. Let nothing stand in your way. You can do this. Time to get rid of the dealers phone numbers now and make today your last day one x
The desire to succeed must come from you first and foremost. Let nothing stand in your way. You can do this. Time to get rid of the dealers phone numbers now and make today your last day one x
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Fortunately people told me to keep coming and trying and eventually I was in a place where I heard what I needed to here that made sense to/for me. " IF I don't pick up the first drink, I don't have to get sober AGAIN." It's worked for a lot of years for a lot of people. BE WELL
triktriky, hey we all understand, we're in a battle - and sometimes, we underestimate our enemy and think we can get closer to him than we should or let our defenses down, but we can't - the enemy wants to see us fail, but we have a new choice today.
hello to day 1, here we go...thanks for the post .
hello to day 1, here we go...thanks for the post .
Welcome back. For me, getting sobriety to finally stick meant realizing that what other people think and say is irrelevant. You, and only you have the power within to beat this thing. And you can...you just have to want it more than using.
As alcoholics we like to complicate things. Have you tried the simple solution of going to an AA Meeting everyday and not drinking between meetings? I have seen this work for many. Doing this gives you a ton of support and forces you into a day at time thinking.
Oh don't even worry about what anyone thinks; we all understand anyway. I personally understand because I've been there myself. I've had so many day 1s but I think it's really sticking this time. I know that this time can stick for you too. Well done on getting back up. It's not how many times we fall down, it's how many times we get back up. So what's the plan?
I never know what made me give in??? I think I have impulse issues. It happens so fast. I think, a drink sounds good, boom....I'm at the liquor store...bottle in hand. I tell myself just for today, but then it's off to the races...drink a few days..stop...have withdraws, get deathly ill...shame, guilt, lies, disgust...REPEAT! I'm on day 22 and have been totally surrendering and praying daily to relinquish control. ONE DAY AT A TIME....I know that's all I can do!
Glad you are back, best of luck to ya!!!!
TR,
It sounds like you're using the AA program? If so, then that sounds an awful lot like Step 1? Keep going! For me, the only way out, is through (through the steps). Read the 9th step promises...the drink problem can be removed for you.
"...tried to....beat this and I have not. It's bigger than I ever thought, too big for me..."
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