Looking for advice
 

Hello! I'm New here, and I came across the site..there is a lot of good information.
Im 96 days sober from Alcohol abuse. Ive pretty much been drinking since the age of 15 and I am now 35. 95 days ago I went to detox for a week and I haven't had a drink since.

Im suffering from depression I think, and of course anxiety. Some days Im fine, working, exercising, eating good...then all of a sudden I feel like my life is coming undone for no reason. My mind races all the time...I even feel manic and over whelmed. I have a hard time focusing and sometime I get dizzy...I can some what control all this by breathing and talking myself out of it..but I just feel like im going crazy.

I have yet to follow up with a doctor, I'm afraid of being prescribed pills that will change me and I know nothing about them.
But at the same time I don't want to feel like this.
I feel like I'm an alien in my own body.

I just feel hopeless and when I feel like this it takes so much to bounce back.

I think after a few months you can still be having symptoms with withdrawal--mood being one of those things.

A good doctor should follow up with you if you're put on a psych medication to make sure they're working *and* not causing awful side-effects.

I've been on a few different medications. What I have now treats both my epilepsy and depression; I like it and it doesn't have any adverse effects. Took some time to find something that works this well, but I had doctors willing to help.

Best of luck! And if medication doesn't suit you, you may have other options. Therapy? Group counselling?

Seeing a doc is great advice. Glad you joined and posted here. Being with others who understand helps tremendously. You are not alone little wing.

Hey hon,

Don't feel hopeless, there's stacks of stuff you can do with this situation. For example - you mention healthy food, exercise (all good :) ) - have you tried meditation, yoga, tai-chi? Most of the people I know who have tried them for anxiety are really positive about it. There are plenty of people here who'd be happy to offer you advice about those. That 'feeling alien' thing is pretty common - tai-chi especially grounds you in your own body.

As for the pills, no on is going to make you take anything that you don't want to - if you go to the doctor and tell her what you told us, she'll be able to find something that you're happy to take. Ask questions, get her to explain. And if you're not happy, don't take it :)

It does take a lot to bounce back. Hang in there, okay?

xx

Nuudawn, Isaiah
Thank you for your response..I think a doctor visit is what I need to do. I feel that I may have a deeper issue with my anxiety. Ive always been a nervous person and I used alcohol over the years to get that liquid courage and calming affect.
It does feel relieving that Im not alone..I feel like everyone around me does not understand.
Thank you again!

Your response Huxley,
really made me feel good...your right...yes I'm doing all good things, like biking to work everyday. I do yoga when I can on the weekends and that really helps. I work a lot and I have a new puppy...but I do need to take the time for myself in my recovery.
I overdue it and need to just chill out and take care of me...deep breath!!

Nice! Someone called Coffeenut told me to breathe when I first started coming here. It's good advice.

Actually, I should see what she's up to... :)

Puppy sounds nice. What breed?

xx

I have to take big breaths all day..uugghh it helps!!!

Hes a German Shepard corgi..hes adorable. :)

You will read your story here repeatedly.

I found lasting sobriety and serenity in the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous.

All the best.

Bob R

Haha! Nice! Inquisitive breeds :) I've got a tortoise. Surprisingly good at climbing, which was not something I pictured tortoises doing.

very nice dog breed!

I think anxiety is the little goblin with roots in all of our addiction. Although I am not utilizing AA..I do remember at one of my very first meetings having a bit of an "aha" moment.
OHHHH..we're all a little messed up here. For some reason I walked around most of my life thinking everybody else had it all figured out and I was just some conspicuous dork fighting like mad to hide my dork from everyone..well, drowning that dork actually.

Turns out I'm just human..flaws and all.

Exactly, drowning the worries! I think my anxiety is coming to surface, I cant wait to get a grasp on it.

Those 12 steps took my anxiety and depression away. I don't require medication.

I wish you well on your sober journey!

some great advice here - welcome little wing :)

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