Learn from it, change your sobriety plan, and try again. Dont try doing exactly what you did this time, because it isnt working for you. Keep going till you find what works for you. Let go of the guilt, its a sobriety killer.

Shame and hating yourself right now is not beneficial. It's going to be counterproductive, in fact. I'm sure you are very disappointed and let down. But can you try too see this in an objective way? Imagine if your friend had relapsed, what would you think? What would you say? You would want your friend to get right back up, knock the dust off... and try again. And to be smarter about it the second time, right? Do the same for yourself :)

Thank you all for your thoughtful and kind words. I realize I made a mistake and am getting back on the wagon again. What triggered me is the very stressful week I had with my 3 young kids. I was at the end of my rope and just wanted to take the edge off. Sadly I ended upper sadder and more tired after I drank and was filled with self doubt and regret. Can't dwell on it though. I will move forward again. Thank you :)

I think your name is powerful. Say it to yourself when you start thinking about drinking. Write down exactly how you feel right now and put it where you will often see it. I kept my note in my wallet. I had to touch it to get to my money. It helped me remember why I stopped and what I would again feel if I started again. Chin up and move forward.