Brand new day and a brand new start Ok, deep breath, here I go. I hate where my life has gone. I am starting new today. I drank my last bottle of wine last night and hope it sticks this time. I am tired of the sluggish day after. I'm tired of not feeling coherent and just want to hide away from everyone and everything. I am tired of constantly thinking of when I should start drinking for the day. I'm tired of feeling ashamed. I want to be a better mom. I don't want my children to remember me as a withdrawn, depressed, stressed out, horrible mother. I have wasted so much time and money and am desperately wanting to end the one person pity party. I want to love myself again. I know I can do this. Thank you for letting me post here. It really helps see it written out. I hope this place will help me pull out of this funk. Thanks again |
Congrats on your great decision ! You and your kids do deserve better, and you can do this ! Key is to have a plan. This can not be done alone, I certainly have tried and failed.. Get into a recovery program, perhaps counseling too.. Good luck and keep posting !! |
Originally Posted by TorontoGuy28
(Post 3871637)
Congrats on your great decision ! You and your kids do deserve better, and you can do this ! Key is to have a plan. This can not be done alone, I certainly have tried and failed.. Get into a recovery program, perhaps counseling too.. Good luck and keep posting !! |
I strongly suggest you get to your local AA meeting, lots of support there. Grab that 24 hour chip and start getting better... It's a disease that tells us it does not exist.. I could not trust myself at the end, somehow despite my best intentions I always ended up picking up alcohol after work... It is also progressive. Please keep us posted on your progress ! |
I have two kids and the reason I am quitting is bc of them. My mother passed away from cirrohis 2 years ago. I to know how ugly this disease can become and yet I continue to drink. Most bad decisions I have made in my life are b/c alcohol is involved. And I to know that I cannot have just 1. It never works....ever. I joined this site last week and have found it to be a very useful support system. I have woke up the past two mornings completly sober and feeling great. I am just fighting the cravings for it now. Good luck to you. We can all do this together :) |
Originally Posted by RightLAine
(Post 3871785)
I have two kids and the reason I am quitting is bc of them. My mother passed away from cirrohis 2 years ago. I to know how ugly this disease can become and yet I continue to drink. Most bad decisions I have made in my life are b/c alcohol is involved. And I to know that I cannot have just 1. It never works....ever. I joined this site last week and have found it to be a very useful support system. I have woke up the past two mornings completly sober and feeling great. I am just fighting the cravings for it now. Good luck to you. We can all do this together :) |
welcome ForMy2Boys :) D |
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