Brand new day and a brand new start
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Brand new day and a brand new start
Ok, deep breath, here I go.
I hate where my life has gone. I am starting new today. I drank my last bottle of wine last night and hope it sticks this time. I am tired of the sluggish day after. I'm tired of not feeling coherent and just want to hide away from everyone and everything. I am tired of constantly thinking of when I should start drinking for the day. I'm tired of feeling ashamed.
I want to be a better mom. I don't want my children to remember me as a withdrawn, depressed, stressed out, horrible mother.
I have wasted so much time and money and am desperately wanting to end the one person pity party. I want to love myself again. I know I can do this. Thank you for letting me post here. It really helps see it written out. I hope this place will help me pull out of this funk.
Thanks again
I hate where my life has gone. I am starting new today. I drank my last bottle of wine last night and hope it sticks this time. I am tired of the sluggish day after. I'm tired of not feeling coherent and just want to hide away from everyone and everything. I am tired of constantly thinking of when I should start drinking for the day. I'm tired of feeling ashamed.
I want to be a better mom. I don't want my children to remember me as a withdrawn, depressed, stressed out, horrible mother.
I have wasted so much time and money and am desperately wanting to end the one person pity party. I want to love myself again. I know I can do this. Thank you for letting me post here. It really helps see it written out. I hope this place will help me pull out of this funk.
Thanks again
Congrats on your great decision !
You and your kids do deserve better, and you can do this !
Key is to have a plan. This can not be done alone, I certainly have tried and failed..
Get into a recovery program, perhaps counseling too..
Good luck and keep posting !!
You and your kids do deserve better, and you can do this !
Key is to have a plan. This can not be done alone, I certainly have tried and failed..
Get into a recovery program, perhaps counseling too..
Good luck and keep posting !!
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: Atlanta
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Thank you for your kind words. i attempted to quit in Feb but it didn't stick. Then it turned into just one more time...hopefully not this time! I felt so much better a week after quitting. Things have been stressful since my husband recently found out his biological father passed away. He died alone and in a lot of pain due to cirrhosis. why we turned back to drinking is beyond me. We know the final outcome of this lifestyle. I guess we just wanted to take the pain away, but it made it more complicated in the end.
I strongly suggest you get to your local AA meeting, lots of support there. Grab that 24 hour chip and start getting better...
It's a disease that tells us it does not exist.. I could not trust myself at the end, somehow despite my best intentions I always ended up picking up alcohol after work...
It is also progressive.
Please keep us posted on your progress !
It's a disease that tells us it does not exist.. I could not trust myself at the end, somehow despite my best intentions I always ended up picking up alcohol after work...
It is also progressive.
Please keep us posted on your progress !
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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I have two kids and the reason I am quitting is bc of them. My mother passed away from cirrohis 2 years ago. I to know how ugly this disease can become and yet I continue to drink. Most bad decisions I have made in my life are b/c alcohol is involved. And I to know that I cannot have just 1. It never works....ever. I joined this site last week and have found it to be a very useful support system. I have woke up the past two mornings completly sober and feeling great. I am just fighting the cravings for it now. Good luck to you. We can all do this together
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 54
I have two kids and the reason I am quitting is bc of them. My mother passed away from cirrohis 2 years ago. I to know how ugly this disease can become and yet I continue to drink. Most bad decisions I have made in my life are b/c alcohol is involved. And I to know that I cannot have just 1. It never works....ever. I joined this site last week and have found it to be a very useful support system. I have woke up the past two mornings completly sober and feeling great. I am just fighting the cravings for it now. Good luck to you. We can all do this together
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