Counselling today
 

Frustrated the living daylights out of me.

Told to exercise and eat properly (I know that,
I'm a personal trainer), put my youngest in daycare (she's not problem at a
And has just had operations) and I can't go to a
Facility because my kids need me.

Oh and they doubled my Valium dose and out me on cymbalta.

Have you told them everything about your drug use?

Doubling Valium seems incredibly incompetent and dangerous...x

Yeah I told them everything

If you told them everything, then you really need to find a new guy MLC.
Thats ridiculous.

Have you filled the script yet?
My advice is to get a second opinion before you do.

Drive to another town if you have to. I think its that important.

As for all the stuff you can't do, maybe it's time to work out what you can/will do?

I found as I got deeper and deeper into trouble, the speed of *everything* increased...It was like careening downhill at 100 miles per hour with a brick wall ahead...it was a very steep descent, I was picking up speed, not slowing down and everything around me was disintegrating...

Anything you can do now to avoid that happening to you, you'll thank yourself for later.

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I agree with Dee, I'm lost for words.

I don't know much of your history, but someone with at least a bit of knowledge about addiction would help. Doubling the thing you're addicted to? It's madness!

That's exactly what it feels like see.


Slippery slope

Basically history is few years of iv drug use when younger, bulimia for 16 years, lots of pills and alcohol last year : clean for 6 weeks back on benzos and alcohol.

Yes u filled the scripts and have had way too much because I feel justifiesz. They won't help me.

See
A nutritionist blah blah, I studied nutrition. Exercise, I do! Teacher yourself moseration .x ok

Put kid in daycAre . No

Rake these pills.
Ok!

I'm concerned for you MLC, and the more you carry on taking those pills, the further you move away from reality and the less likely you are to see this for what it really is.

You say you won't consider daycare for your little one? How are your children going to manage if you are not there at all for them? If you really do hit that brick wall at the end of the slope?

You need to put on those brakes MLC. You deserve it and so do your children xx

oh no. no. no. i don't know what to say.
if you're seeing a therapist now, you can afford to call another one. call as many as you can. tell them what you are telling us until you find some one that clicks with you honestly about stopping these addictions.

i shouldn't be giving advice, but i give better than i receive.

you can't lose money by making anonymous phone calls.

you're going to make me f*cking cry & i have enough problems. please search & call these people on the link or wherever else you find them. call them f*cked up, just start finding who works for you.
you need to be in contact with real people right now.
this site is great, but you have other real people involved & you need to find someone you find comfortable discussing this face to face with, a professional.

ntmu, I think she's off-line at the moment. I'm sure she'll come back and read your posts and know how much you care x
We can all reach out our hands to others and that's a good thing to do, but it is ultimately their decisions to make, their lives to lead. Please make sure you look after yourself too xxx

Hey I'm knlone

Thanks for

The link
But I'm on Australia's

In australia

.

??

lol, i deleted something.

i'll look into australia connections if i can.

but anyway, let's talk kids.

you have a son or daughter?

3 sons. 2 daughters

woah, big family. you must be a loving mum.

you def know they need you.

i'm sure you want to be the healthiest mum you can be

and would give anything for them

you might have gotten yourself into a jam and may need some help out
we know that these addictions make us better through out the day
but really there's something else about my mum
even though she's gotten help
and getting treated with pills
when i talk to her now
it's like where did my mum go?
i don't know how to explain it
but i'd rather she just be getting talk therapy
than using anysort of pills

also, i can definitely say that getting of addictions really sucks in the beginning
i can hide out in my place and try to do that
if not i will honestly have to go to a hospital
being in the same surroundings ever day and seeing the same people may not be what i want around me while i go through the detox phase

i hope i have not offended you
but i still prefer my real mum
to my pilled mum

yes caveat: i am new to recovery & don't know what i'm talking about, but somehow i imagine you sober caring for your children.
i know, because i have taken all kinds of drugs & alcohol, though for the last many years only alcohol, that i've always seen
there has been a much truer quality to my emotions & being when i have been sober than when i have been not
regardless of what they will tell you, i think most kids truely want the love that come from sober/real mom.
it doesn't have to be there every second, but it never gets real enough with all these medications. for me. sorry for babbling away on your thread.
yes, i'm trying to get sober too.

i don't know if this helps, i'm running out of energy today, but search & call these people too:

Australian Psychological Society : Find a Psychologist

MLC, my well meaning psychiatrist prescribed more and different drugs for me too. Throwing more meds at it will not solve the problem, most especially if you are drinking too. You know that too, since you posted about it.

You may be currently addicted, but you are by no means stupid. You can sense that this doubled dosage is probably not a step in the right direction. Advocate for yourself while you still can. Find a different doctor.

I know you are spinning right now Midlifcrisis but I want you to know that I'm thinknig of you. I take Cymbalta and trust me...do not drink alcohol when taking it. I was hospitalized becaused it and alcohol caused seizure. Don't give up....you are worth it :)

I'm thinking of you MLC.Hope you get another doc/therapist who can help you and/or go into rehab,even just for a short time.Wishing you all the best

Find a doc that specializes in addiction. There is some really bad professional advice but there is also some very good advice from docs that know what they are doing

COMPLETELY agree with those here that think your current doctor is being "ridiculous". I don't recall it being a good idea to pour gasoline onto a blazing fire. I just don't get it. Please do seek a second opinion.

Sweetheart...you have 5 kids that NEED you. I have 4 of my own and you cannot imagine how happy they are now that I am sober. I think I honestly lost sight of that while I was drinking..... my value and importance . But I KNOW it now.... People will tell you to give up using ( or in my case, drinking) for yourself....and that is fantastic, solid advice.....but for me personally to really quit drinking, I had to first give it up for my family. I made a promise to them..... quitting for "myself" came later on. I hope you will do the same. You won't regret it.

I did the same. It can be very effective for some of us.

I think following the prescription from that dr will be the worst thing you can do.

Please get another opinion. You are going to lose your grip and it will all be lost. Your children need you to be alert and present.

Of course my addict booze is stoked