YvRGuy---Well Ive been to two meetings before. That was over a month ago. They were both speaker meetings because I am uncomfortable to go to a discussion meeting and talk, but I am sure talking would help. I know I need to step up and go to one soon! The website helps a lot and working out does also. I have worked out while i was actively drinking and it always felt horrible. Today made me remember when it felt good. I have put on 15 pound since i started drinking a lot. So I think making sure I workout a lot will be motivation. Plus I have a half marathon in April I need to get ready for which my binges have given me great set backs. Not sure what else to do. I am going to stay away from people and places that make me want to drink Gforce- no worries, you are right about coming out to my family. I would feel so much better but I still am not ready. I think I want to get this under control before I find a way I am comfortable coming out. Yes it all is very sad that people are not accepting. I believe my family would accept me. I am the problem. I need to accept me. I am not sure how to do that yet, but I believe putting down the drink will help me figure that out. |
Ok almost on 24 hours....The high i was on before is def coming down. I am so exahasted and even under my eyes hurt. |
Good for you...you're almost through day 1. Can you take a nice shower or bath, have a little snack and try for some rest? You're going to wake up tomorrow, so happy you didn't drink today! |
Tomorrow morning is a new day, get off to a positive start and keep your mind on sobriety! Good luck. |
Originally Posted by Hevyn
(Post 3799893)
Hi wino. Well, that's exactly why I had to give it up all together. I had too many sessions like the one you described. Every time I picked up it led me to feeling that way. The only answer was to stop completely and not pretend willpower would save me from going on a binge. Hang in there, Wino, and keep reaching out for support, here and in any other ways available to you. |
Thank you...still at work....I am going to go home soon....walk the dog...have sleepy tea...take a hot shower and sleep.....I just hope I will sleep |
Good Morning, Today is a new day:) You might not have slept well last night, but sleep will come. Think about something special you'd enjoy today.....a walk, an ice cream cone.....a nap :) |
Well I got to 26 hours around 3 am...and I was up and my body exhausted... I. Kept getting jerked awake and that gave me anxiety so I had a shot of vodka..then again at 515...ugh I'm disappointed in myself. I do feel like this is progress...I need to get past the night part...I did not have so much trouble sleeping last time and that was about a month ago....I feel like if I can get passed the first night I'll be OK....I have no urge to drink |
From what I've read here, the effects of relapse become worse each time, which is why you might be having more trouble than a month ago.....but it WILL pass and you WILL sleep again:) Why not get rid of the vodka so it's not so convenient? |
Finally slept..on my official day two! |
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