Damn, I stumbled again.. sighh
 

Yup, I had two pumpkin ales, and half of one of my home made beers... man that sucks. I hear people getting to months, and I can't get past 10 days!

That's too bad. Stick with it! I gotta say though that I would have a hard time making my own beers and trying to quit at the same time.

^ I agree ..

Like I told you before, I worked for Boulder Brewery and made my own. Just cant be involved with it like that, and expect not to have some..

Stop worring about other people and their time. Focus on yours one moment after another.

Probably a good idea not to make your own beer when you are trying to stop drinking. I'm assuming you live in a shared house? It might also be wise to tell your housemates what your intentions are to perhaps avoid any pressure or influence in the future?

Hi guys starting my journey today.. I will not drink any alcohol this day.

Welcome aboard Black :)

You have found a great place to start that journey.. :)

I remember how hard it was Meso - and yeah it sucked.
I wanted change in my life but I wanted my life not to change.

I never found a way to do that.

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Welcome to SR Black :)
Feel free to start your own thread if you like and tell more of your story :)

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Welcome Black, I wish you well on your journey! I am still working on my mine so I can't give you much advice as people like Dee, Inda, and others.

You know I didn't even want to write tonight. I wanted to keep it hidden from all of you... but I realize that is something my dad does; he hides his drinking but we all know he is drunk. I know you guys cant see when I am or am not, but at least I don't want to hide because that's when I think I will have the most problems. I rather say it, get tough love, supportive feedback, cursed out, whatever, but I don't want to hide. I will keep on trying until I succeed.

I really didn't think it would be so hard to quit while in college, but no, it totally is.

If I read your post correctly, you had 9 days without drink, one slip you regret, and are intending to resume not-drinking. Congrats on the 9 days, greater congrats on your decision to resume sobriety. I don't think that a slip is that big a deal if you treat it as just being that, a one day thing---where I would worry. or where I should have worried, is about those times I had a slip and and used that as a justification to continue drinking, like my days sober did not count for anything---the importand thing is that you got right back to recovery---just my opinion, of course, but congrats again on deciding to continue in recovery and not beat yourself up so badly as undermine the healthy work you have been doing. Have a good day and a continuing recovery, all the best----Rick

Thats such a good but hard thing to do, is being honest. So well done !!!!


You just got to keep at it. And really keep trying new suggestions to stay sober. And little by little I think youll get there....

And never worry about telling on yourself, One you know we would not judge you or be disappointed. Because most of us have been down that dirty road for a long time..

I am so proud of you for seeing the problem so early in life..

Who care that its day one, techincally thats all we all have.. :)

I love the line the person in the room with the longest amount of sobriety, Is who ever got up the earliest today.. ;)

You guys are awesome! :) Going to keep trying.

Day 2 for me and the only thing that feels real is not having a hangover. I want to beat this alchoholic demon inside me. I am sick of feeling this way. I just want to pull the covers over my head but I know I can't.

I was like this for two good years stop start stop start each hangover swearing it off until the next one a few days later.


It can be done, its not rocket science :)

Just dont drink, ride out the cravings stare at a ceiling be totally bored, run round making loud donkey noises whatever..ride it out, give yourself time to get to a place where you can begin to think that you can make it.

Good luck.

Welcome to you too Ericka - lots of support here :)

Like I said to Black, feel free to start your own thread :)

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I hear you, those demons are loud for me also especially since they whisper in your head where there's no where to hide. That why coming here helps, but I think I need help of others that don't drink in person. I wish you the best in your struggles, but at least we can struggle together here, and get support from those that are where we want to be :)

Demons? Whispers? That voice that tells you lies to keep you drinking, and lies to tell you to doubt yourself? That is the voice of your addiction doing everything it can to maintain its lifeline, that constant flow of alcohol.

You can keep on listening to it, but you don't have to if you don't want to. AVRT can help with dealing with this alcoholic voice we all have. Urge surfing is another tool. I recommend these ideas, they may just be the answer for you.

Meso, I totally understand. I had been sober for two weeks when my husband came home from work a week and a half ago and asked if I wanted to go get a beer. I said sure. Had 3 IPAs from a local brewery. They were delicious. I thought, "I can just have three..." yeah, well, I drank nearly every night since (my personal favorite, vodka) and then went on a total numbing out binge for the past four days. I'd say that it's progressive.

BUT don't beat yourself up. You fessed up and came back. I have also been in that pattern of not getting past 10-14 days. I was almost too ashamed to come back. Glad I did, because I realized that I am not alone in that pattern. Thank you.

You had a whole lot more sober days than not. That's a good start. You can make it for more than 10 days! Just keep trying and you will succeed :)

Hey Buddy :)

Just posting a reminder for you today... Dont drink, even if your ass falls off


Hope your doing well today :)

Meso here are a few things from your post about a month ago

I must confess that I was not optimistic that your “self-experiment” would work, so I suggested you have a “plan B”. You responded with

I don’t recall you referring to any sort of backup plan since then. You seem to be starting another attempt at sobriety with little or no planning outside of anther resolve not to drink. Do you think this has much chance of working?

Meso please abandon “alternative means of recovery” and “self-experiment” and use a plan or method that has worked for others. Something that is advised? There are many examples refered to on this site. Pick one and give it your best shot.

@awuh1, yah I abandoned that plan shortly after I failed... I think it was ten days also, lol Ten days I can't stay sober, and ten days I can't continue drinking without making an ass or injuring myself. I see were you are coming from about a plan; you can't get to where you want to be unless you have a map/end goal... honestly, I don't know were to begin with making a plan for this :/ Do you have any suggestions for me?? Maybe like a mock plan where I can gather ideas from

@Inda, lol, thanks for the reminder!!

@Freshstart, that AVRT seems like it will work for me, I just need to do my research on it.

@lilac, yah its tough to deal with, it may not even be the last time, but I hope to master those urges. I haven't drank ... but I guess its only been a day :P

@freefall, thats a good way of putting it. 10 days sober to 1 drinking is better than 10 drinking to 1 day sober.

Dont forget the most important thing Meso ...

No program works for you,,, You have to work for IT :)

And I have another post it for you... Dont drink today , even if your ass falls off;)

:)

The analogy of a map is a good one Meso. Without a map you are likely to be a bit like Alice.

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
The Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to
Alice: I don't much care where.
The Cat: Then it doesn't much matter which way you go.
Alice: …so long as I get somewhere.
The Cat: Oh, you're sure to do that, if only you walk long enough.

You said that you think AVRT will work for you. Do the research and make it your map (if it suits) and embark.

Bon Voyage.

Meso,

Tenacity!

Its what we, as alcoholics, need sometimes. And you have it.

Meso, I'm glad you are here, glad you are posting.
I get to benefit from your thinking and the advice of others.

I have a thought for you (and me) in regard to that plan.
I think if we each took the best of our own ideas plus those that appeal to us here and write them down and then follow through today, we will be on our way.

For instance, I like the idea of braying like a donkey if that's what it takes. Also think it's a good plan to not drink even if my ass falls off.

Sounds funny, but I'm serious.
Make a plan, write it down, then DO it.

Hang in there one day at a time. Today is a new day for me and I plan on staying away from any forms of poison they call alcohol. I am trying to see it the way it truly is. Poison in a nice looking bottle on the shelf. It's amazing how the people who sell it make soooo much money off this horrible poison. It is a trap. Today I plan to stay away from the poison traps. I only will worry about today. The poison will be waiting for me to pick up anytime tomorrow.

Hang in there. I just said a prayer for you! I know how you feel. You are not alone.

be proud of the good days. You can do it!