Wanting a Change
 

Hi, I have been reading the threads for hours...looking for hope and words of encouragement.
My husband and I decided to get off pills together after 4 years of heavy addiction. Its almost 48 hours since our last pill and as I have been reading other's stories.
It is hell. And I am not alone.
I just want to say ...This website and the people on it are amazing. Even though I feel like death. Every hour is worse than the last. It is nice to know their are people out there who have beaten this. Thank you all for sharing, because it looks like its gonna be a bumpy ride.

I think you are both doing an amazing job especially doing it together. You can do it.

You guys are making the right decision... I hope you guys are doing this with the help of medical profession-Cold turkey can kill folk... Congrats on your decision.. you've got a host of cheerleaders here!

Welcome...I don't know about pills....But alcohol took me on a rollercoaster ride I don't want to repeat....I did consult with a doctor and had a medically supervised detox...Made it a little less painful. Something you and your husband might want to consider....Glad you found the site...And congrats on making a great decision.

I second Sapling's idea of a medically supervised detox. It probably saved my life. Stay strong and we are here for you.

Welcome Butterfly! Yes, it'll be a bumpy ride, but really worth it! Good for you to make this choice!!

Well. We are on day 3.
The chills and stomach cramps are the worst. We had to sleep in seperate rooms last night due to the leg jerks and full body spasms. If you call what happened in those hours "sleep" that is.
I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel.
I just know, one day, I will feel normal again.

Hope you've got medical support?
I don't know anything about pills, but me and my H just celebrated 3 months sober together after drinking throughout our 21 year marriage. It can be done. We've got a whole new relationship now. Strong, honest and real.
Wishing you both every success x

Thanks Jeni.
Congrats! and its so good to hear that a couple can achieve soberity together.
I needed to hear that today.

Welcome to SR Butterfly :) Are you getting any other support other than coming here? x

Hi Butterfly

Welcome to S.R

I've never done pills, but I'm on the alcoholic roller coater ride. Day 9 of freedom and it's feeling good! this is my 2nd time round on here and it will be my last.

I think it is great that you and your other half are doing this together. I should imagine that these 1st few days are the worst, but you can do it and better still, do it together.

If you need medical help, go and get it, get all the help available.

Keep posting and be honest, especially to your self.

Big hugs

Gxxx

We are in financial ruin...so no medical help nor any meds to make it easier.
This is day 3 ...and I hear its the worst.
I think the thing that is heartbreaking ... my husband just texted me "I can't do this"
I told him "Yes! we can! We are!"

If the tears would stop ... I might be able to be more supportive to him. But doesn't he understand I feel like death too?
*sigh* .... I WILL get through this!

My day 3 of no drinking was horrendous, spent the whole day crying, dwelling on the bad things I've done, full of self loathing, etc etc. Don't want to go back to that dark place ever again.

No pain, no gain.

Keep with it, it will be worth it. Keep posting and be honest to yourself.

Big hugs

Gxxx

I suggest not to lose your hope ,keep trying if you relapse , I have tried for a couple of years and now relaxing with more than a 100 days..
The time is called bitter sweet !!.If you are on medication and a heavy drinker or feel any withdrawal problems please do not ignore professional help.:You_Rock_

Dix

i am very glad you both want to get clean. have you thought of support like NA? it helps to have people who have not only been there physically, but mentally, too.

And it gets better? right?

Welcome, Butterfly!

It gets better and better, otherwise no-one would bother doing it!
Read the posts of people who have made it past a year.... I believe what they tell me. You are in the hardest bit, hang on in there x

I never thought of going to the grocery store as a challenge before.
But I did it! Through the sweats ...through the shakes... through the people.
I did it!
Day 4 ....bring it on! I can baby step through you too!!!

That's excellent, Butterfly! :You_Rock_

Baby steps are the way to go. If you can stay sober for 5 minutes, you can do it for another 5. That's how I got through the first several days and yes, it does get easier in time.

Welcome to the forum, by the way!

Hi Butterfly,
I've been addicted to pain pills off and on (mostly on) for 20 years. I have over a 100 days clean this time around.
What I know is that you can do this. Time is your best friend. Just don't use no matter what cuz if you do, it'll set the clock right back to the beginning. Keep going and don't look back. It will never be easier than right now. I know. I'm 58 years old and I never thought I'd be dealing with this stuff at this stage of my life.
Also...it's crucial that you find some kind of support. Lots of choices. Find what works for you.
Best of luck to you.

Butterfly, congratulations to you and your husband for making the right choice. It's one of those things that could only get harder to do the longer you wait to do it. Now is most definitely the best time.

SR has a whole bunch of different forums, and has one specifically for substance (other than alcohol) abuse, and you will find it here.

I know someone who used 1800 mg oxycodone every day for months, maybe longer. She is sober and straight today and says that if she could do it, anyone can kick. There is a big beautiful world waiting for you. Best to you.

Butterfly

Yes it gets better. You can do this

Big hugs

Gx

Hi Butterfly,
Wanted to drop by and offer encouragement. How is hubby doing?

CaiHong

Day 3?

You should be happy to know that a light is about to appear at the end of your tunnel.

Zube

DAY 4!
Whew! Hubby and I are into day 4 ...
I feel a little better today...my first thought when I woke up was "where are they?!?!" :(
That disappointed me.
Still shakey, still getting massive chills. Still weepy as hell. I can't seem to tame that nagging little voice telling me they are just a phone call away....but... No headache this morning :) Thank God for the little things huh?
Hubby is worn out physically(he always took more mg than me because he is twice my size)
But I am so proud of him ... hes staying strong for our family.
Today I am going to visit my daughter at college and go to lunch(NCSU - go wolfpack!)
(I also have 2 boys in high school)
I figured a distraction will help me get through Day 4.
sooo...wish me luck.....

Be strong and have a great day with your daughter....You're doing great and it will get better every day you don't pick up!

I'm wishing you luck butterfly, You are doing really, really well. No going back now. Think of the money you'll be saving!! Put it away each day and put it towards a treat for you and your man.

I'm on day 10 now, different addiction but I bet the pain is the same. I actually think I look better today, my skin looks better, less blotchy and my eyes don't look red rimmed and puffy.

we can do this

big hugs

Gxxx

I am praying for you and your husband. Your story had me close to tears. I wish you both success. Husband and I are 15 days booze free! You can do this!

I did it! I did it!

I must sound like a 5 yr old that just learned to tie her shoe. *heavy sigh*

After sweating through 2 outfits before I left ....actually leaving (which caused a full blown panic attack)...driving through traffic... I finally got there.
I ate a complete meal (which is more than I have eaten at one time in 4 years)
I pushed through. Pushed through the panic. Pushed through the anxiety that makes my thoughts race.
Ya know what? Maybe I CAN do this !!
I am exausted ... every muscle in my body is screaming ... but I actually feel something! Wait!
I think its "pride" .... hey! I remember you pride! ... you used to be my friend.
Your evil brother "ashamed" took over my life for way tooo long.
I WANT IT BACK!