Great beginning! Call at least one person a day. They took their time to give you their numbers, now use them! Like your life depends on it!

Glad you went! :)

I'm posting to my same thread because I just don't have the patience right now to remember or find out how to start a new thread. I feel like I'm losing my mind, which I am, because alcohol does that. The past 6 months I had been doing so great. I changed my diet, started taking vitamins, working out, at least cut down on my drinking, lost 36 pounds and my BP and liver numbers were great!

THEN I gave myself permission to drink in moderation. HA! What a joke that is. I'm a freaking alcoholic and I can't drink ... period.

I own a condo and last weekend my neighbor had some kids over and they banged on the ceiling all day. I started drinking and it finally got to be too much and I started yelling and stomping. Then I went to bed around 9 and they were still banging so I beat on the wall. They are such a nice family and I have so much guilt over doing that. I did apologize but it's not the same

I just feel out of control and I can't seem to stop again. I know I need meetings and I need to reach out....

Guess I'm just venting but I need to kick myself in the ass! :c004: