Sometimes I avoid this site too. Like when I mess up and have a drink I feel guilty and like I have let people on here down. But I find myself coming back because the truth is this is the one place where people truly do understand what you are going through. Your path to sobriety and a happier and healthier new you is not going to be the same as everyone elses and yes I agree sometimes there are people on here that are a bit to pushy or judgemental, but the majority of people on here are supportive and caring and sometimes thats just what we need! Im sorry things are tuff with you and your husband right now, but if you look at the positive side of this he does love you enough to give you that chance to improve yourself. Now its up to you what you do with that chance.