Wasted 4 29 yrs. Trying soberity 1 time
 

This is first time I ever posted or tried to be sober by choice or than jail that is. I have been a heavy partier since I was 16 now 39 where did go I dont know. But , I am going on day 5 yesterday was hell.

Day 1 vomit all day and night.no sleep
Day 2 bathroom, bathroom ect.no sleep
Day 3 same as 2 started shaking a little and sweats heart racing. no sleep
Day 4 started same as 3 by the afternoon I was seeing things sweating in big phases, heart thought was going to come out! Just tried to breath since and deep and slow laid down and fell asleep thank somebody. Sleep 12-13 hours and woke up after sweating that whole sleep.Felt little better for a awhile then stumbed on to this site, best stumble I ever had since I was 16 .
Day 5 really shakin but feel much better so far ,be back soon wish me luck

Wow, sounds like a tough withdrawl...hope you'll be okay. The good thing is, if you stay sober, you'll never have to go through that hell again.

Even after 5 days of withdrawal going to your Doctor is something you should consider. No telling how much damage was caused after all those years of drinking. Heart, liver, kidneys etc. etc., the alcohol takes its toll on everything.

It gets tough but it will pass. Taking in Vitamin B and drinking orange juice will help. In a few days you will feel better. If your worry about the withdrawn they go see a doctor about it. If you can, see your family doctor first before going to the ER, just because of price of the ER if you go there.

We're glad you're here. Keep coming back.

Bud I know just what your going threw. I myself was in those same shoes you are in right now a few weeks ago. Just know that it does get better! You should start telling a sense of calmness after the first week. And when you do, you will feel fantasic mentally! Its like this huge boulder is lifted off your shoulders.

Of course you will still need to fight temptation, but your trust me its SO WORTH IT! Feeling sober after so many years of drinking myself is a far better feeling then being smashed everyday!

-Ryan

Hi there and welcome! Come here day and night! Stay away from the beast! I'm at DAY 9!!! Almost in the double digits! My first time wanting to be sober too! Of course everyone tells you you need to but it's not until you are desperate to stop playing the game that you stop.

Quiet the primitive side of your brain that wants to drink as much as you can with support and love. as others have said - KEEP COMING BACK! :ghug3

Welcome!

I'm glad you found us.

Welcome - Good luck and keep coming :)
 

Welcome - it really does get better. Keep at it one day at a time.

:welcome

Welcome to SR

Fifteen years ago at about your age with the about the same time of being an addict I entered recovery. Its been quite a ride since then. A lot of clean/sober time interrupted by varying lengths of returns to my old life. Over all being in recovery has diffidently improved my life far beyond my expectations.

Wishing you well on your road to wellness.

As others have said, if you have the means to see a doctor and speak about coming off the alcohol, I highly recommend it. But as far as the withdrawals go, I'm very familiar with them, as are many people here. Yep, this can be the last time you ever go through it. The thought alone of having to experience that again is enough to keep me off the bottle. The sweats, inability to sleep...ugh. I just felt really gross.

But after a few days I started feeling a lot better. Within a couple weeks I was sleeping much more soundly and waking up feeling energized and invigorated, ready to tackle the day.

Hang in there; this too shall pass, as all things do. Thanks for joining us! I found this site on the day I knew I could no loner have a relationship with alcohol if I wanted to live a joyous, productive life; been here and booze-free ever since.

I hope Day 6 goes better for you than the previous ones!

Welcome IndaMiricale - Congrats on your decision to get sober! Being sober seems strange and scary at first, but each day gets better and better. I hope you feel better soon - that sounds like a rough detox.

Take it one day or one hour at a time. Keep reading and posting. I couldn't have done it without this place. It really helped take my mind off my own stuff, plus helped me deal with the insane part of me that still wanted a drink.

Glad you here!:ghug3

IndiaM~Good Luck on your sobriety. That was a tough Detox. Glad today is a bit better 4 U.

Just wondering...how much were U drinking everyday?

Welcome to SR and congratulations on making it through a tough withdrawal. You're an inspiration to me,

Welcome :)

Sorry you're having a rough time - I really recommend seeing a Dr, IndaMiricale - it really is the best thing to do.

D

Welcome, and another vote for seeing a Doctor. That sounds like a tough withdrawal.

Welcome...:wavey:
Good to know you are here.

To answer that could very but at least 12 beers and probably 4,5 shots which were always doubles cause I work in the restaurant bus. and all bartender hook up others. Great right now, but easy could do more cause I never counted or hardly paid in a fog , I only on day 5 but I like it so far!!!!!

Welcome Indamiricale...hopefully it gets better in the next day or two. Make sure you're drinking alot of fluids. Sleep when you can...and see your doctor soon. Glad you're here.

It's never too late to quit, Inda. I quit at age 39 and recently marked two years sober. You need to just keep adding days, and the fog will begin to clear. Day 6 may not feel a whole lot better than Day 5, but I guarantee you will see progress when you start comparing days with larger gaps in between. Day 10 will feel better than Day 5. Day 20 will fill better than Day 20. Keep posting and getting advice here. You can do this, and you will not regret a single moment of sobriety!

day 6
 

Well I am moving on foward to day 6 sweet! I actually ended up feeling descent by the end of yesterday all things considered,and was exhausted ate drank plenty and fell asleep at 1am which is early for me anyway.Lots of sweating but stayed sleeping till about 10am wow.


So this is what is like to wake up sober I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really feel good except for I am still shaking but I will take this shaking over shaking hungover as can be and going to the bottle to stop it.

Thank you all for your responses. I totally new to this so if someone could tell me I do keep posting my day on this thread do you start new ones or what?

I would guess this is when it gets scary feeling better and all I guess I just have to keep thinking of all the money,3 dui's,jobs,relationships, ect. That this damn addiction has cost Really makes me so sad, plus I sure my emotions are going to be complety all over the place for a long time. Being trashed all the time .
Well I be back cause I am not very computer savoy,I really to typeor talk about my feeling but I have to already I feel better.


I think I could see a new addiction in my future LOL

You're doing just fine computer-wise and you can start new threads or continue posting on this one.

Good for you on Day 6, and yeah your emotions will probably be a bit crazy for awhile, but you can get through this.

Way to go Inda - here's to day 6!:c011:

I totally agree about the mornings! That was a real motivator for me. When I was tempted to have a drink, I thought about how it was like picking between two kinds of mornings. I could have "Morning A" with all the heart palpitations, shakiness, and anxiety, guilt, etc. etc. OR "Morning B," with all the really good stuff. (It took some time before I got smart again and connected the dots, haha!)

And like you said, it can get tough when we feel better, like "was I really that messed up?" I think that's where this place saved my a__ . So many people telling my story, wanting to stop, and then others who took it further and lost everything...it was hard to stay in denial. I was here sometimes morning, noon and night just convincing myself over and over....... Maybe I needed it more because I hadn't had a big crisis, didn't have embarrassing blackouts, etc..... I don't know. But it sure helped.

Keep up the good work and remember to take it one day at a time.:day6

Hey--

I'm close to your age, started abusing whatever I could get my hands on at 14, 15, and never really stopped until the last two years. Quit the street drugs eight years ago, and the prescription drugs that my doc did not prescribe, but alcohol was always present, and has been a real problem since age nineteen.

I really regret the time lost, and sometimes say, **** this; why bother?

But I feel better all-around--physically, obviously; after seven months I have tried hard, a first, to abstain from ETOH, and my mind may be clearing as well. I'm in a really chaotic place, a shelter, and got there pretty much under my own steam.

There are a lot of recovery options available on the Internet.

Take what you can from every approach that appeals to you.

Regards,

freerad

way to go on day6 IndaMiricale :)

D

day 7
 

Well on day 7 so nice to keep feeling well. For all those years day after day waking only to feel like sh** and that being polite>

I think I finally in the mood to do some cooking , I am hungry for something good. I thinking strip steak with garlic roasted mashed potato's, grilled asparagus and top it off the steak with crimini mushrooms and for the asparagus a balsamic reduction. I just have to be a little care with the knifes still a little shakey LOL
I been in fine dining resaurants my whole life and will be weird to go back sober, but I am looking foward to it .


Alright one more day right? to the next

Yummy- making me hungry!
You are doing good- keep going!

Day 8
 

Well still here and comin back, cant believe it has been 7 days!!

For the first time in my life ever trying to be sober and I made it this far, I must say I am very proud of mysellf. Not to fool myself that it is not going to be easy but aleast I finally started somewhere.

Really feeling pretty positive and good so far today.

I have to go to the court house tomorrow for a payment hearing (once a month)for my last dui, and I pray last one this has cost me 8k so far still owe 1,110 to the court , my job because I had to serve 20 days in the county jail,and my car.

Starting all over at my age is scary and I hope I can just keep my chin up and keep truckin on.


Peace,Dyaln

good for you IndaMiracle! :)

D