100 days! Well I'll be. I'm not sure what to think. I guess this is a milestone though I'm not a believer in counting days of sobriety. 'X' amount of days sober are not the prize to me. A happy, calm and content sobriety is, whether it be a few months or many years. It's been a journey and I only feel now as if I've moved away from my life as it was when I was drinking. I've struggled, for sure; just a couple of weeks ago I was close to picking up a drink out of sheer boredom, the 'what's the point' attitude that arose from sinking back into all my old, negative patterns of behaviour and thinking. Turns out the/my antidote was to shake it off by getting out to see people who care about me and who I care about, taking part in activities (like, for me, indoor climbing, the gym), getting a job, as ****** and banal as this one is, just for the sake of having structure in the days again. So, after 100 days clean, if you'd ask me I'd say that I am finally beginning to feel a measure of peace, a lightness of spirit that I haven't felt in a long time. I know that I could go back to that hell anytime I want. I understand that relapse happens well before you put the glass or bottle to your lips; it starts when you begin losing sight of what you value more: people, yourself, gratitude, perspective etc. So that's 100 days down, for what they're worth, which is a lot really. For the next 100 days, the goal is not just simply to stay sober. How boring is that? No, there's lots I need to do. Here's some:
Anyway, thanks for letting me think aloud on here. God bless you all. Hud x |
congrats on the first 100! :c029: |
100 days..:scoregood |
Hey, congrats with your 100 days! As one of the worlds biggest doubters, I would like to endorse AA and ask you to give it a try. Have you spoken at it yet? Have you done a chair? Have u tried the steps? U dont feel or get the whole benefits until u do these things and ultimately help someone else do it too. Whatever u decide, best wishes! |
FIND GOD! I feel like a broken record, but this is so crucial that I can't say it enough. He will give you strength for the hardships that will surely come, willpower will not get it done (but you probably already know this). |
Congratulations on your 100 days sober! Like you, I recognized that a relapse for me, began with getting caught up in the negative thoughts. Sometimes, I just longed to let go and to wallow in negative stuff and I realized I don't have that luxury. For me, it's a slippery slope on the way to hell. And, the first few months of sobriety are to be treasured because they show you that you have unlimited opportunities. |
Congrats on your first hundred days of a better sober life.:scoregood |
Congrats on your 100 days! Awesome! |
Outstanding job!! 100 days is a milestone without a doubt. Keep moving forward! |
Way to go Hud!!! :ring |
Congrats on the 100 days! |
Congratulations on your 100 days Hud....and on that sense of peace and lightness of spirit.:) Good luck with the cigs and your other objectives :) D |
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