Starting again
 

Hi,

I am new to this website although this isnt my first attempt to get dry - I hope this time it will be my last and that I can improve my life which is becoming hell due to my addiction to booze.

I am on my 2nd day of sobriety - still feeling bruised and sore in every way after my last few weeks heavy drinking every night ending in a weekend of almost non stop drinking which has left me feeling like death.

I have to go and get ready for work now (so lucky I have a job) but am really excited about this site and would love to spend longer on here. I think an online community like this will inspire and help me alot. I will get to AA meetings when I can as well but at the moment I need a few more days out of the public eye while I lick my wounds and try to stop feeling shaky. I will go to work and do what is necessary for my family but that is going to take all of my energy at this time.

I hope I can make some new friends and help others in this situation - I will share more of my story later and hopefully report on how I am getting through another day not wanting to drink. I know I will want to drink again when I feel better so the more I get down on here now I can look back on to help me overcome the cravings when they appear.

I wish everyone on here the best of luck and will be rushing to check for any reponse as soon as I can this evening.

DG x

Welcome, Debbie!! You will most definitely find support here -- this is a wonderful community of caring friends. I'm glad you found us!

Hi Debbie,

Welcome!

I'm glad you have decided to live a sober life.

It's scary at the outset, but you are not alone.

I have found that SR is an amazing and inspirational place, so keep reading and posting.

Hi Debbie

You'll certainly make friends here :)

Good to have you with us - welcome!
D

Thank you
 

Thanks all so much - I couldnt resist coming back in before leaving for work - I get addicted to everything! Hopefully an addiction to this place will help me keep away the other one the really BAD one.

See you all later - I have lots of questions - how do online meetings work and about the steps to name just two.

DG x

Hi and welcome Debbie! Glad to see you here:-) I don't know about anyone else but for me, I was so sick the first week that I didn't really do anything outside of the bare minimum.

Welcome to SR! I hope we can help you as much as this site has helped me.:)

Welcome!

Welcome Debbie! I became addicted to this site quite quickly, lol. Glad you're here!

So nice to feel all the mutual support coming from this site, I can see its going to be a life saver for me when I am feeling weak and cant get to a meeting. Im still trying to work out how to get around the site and what to do first - there seems an awful lot going on Im not sure where to go next!

I havent tried the chat room yet - when I have been on it looks like there arent many using it although I could be mistaken - I think it would be a major help to chat to someone "live" when the urge for a drink is getting strong. Does anyone have any experience with the chat rooms?

I have to go make dinner now - have managed to do a fair bit today considering how crap I still feel and I hope I can carry on and feel a little better each day as the week goes on - only thing is I am a bit scared of feeling really well again because then I will want to have a drink - its always the same I dont know how to stop it and I am very weak and have always given in to it eventually.

DG x

Hi Debbie, welcome to SR and good for you for having the desire to live a better life. There are people here 24/7 from all over the world that you can reach out to, stay strong.

Hey, welcome!

I haven't used the chat much lately. It's hit or miss when you find people on there. There are scheduled meetings that take place too. I find the boards are usually pretty responsive, and even at 3am you have the Australians hanging around so... never a dull moment.

Hi and welcome Debbie!

Hi Debbie!...and welcome to SR
I am happy for you that you have decided to live a sober life..
This is a great place, lots of support; and truly wonderful people...we are not a glum lot:)
You might want to check out the stickies at the top of the page...
look forward to seeing more of you!

The people here have helped me a great deal. You've come to the right place. :)

Welcome! This is an amazing group of people from all walks of life. We all have that one thing in common...a desire for recovery from addiction. So glad you have joined us!!!

Hi Debbie. I too, am in the early days (doing day 4 today). All the best on your journey.
vee

So true ^

Welcome to SR Debbie,
I work until 2 or 3 am , so this place was a real lifesaver early on;
....still is !!
Thank goodness for the Europeans and Aussies here, ...this place wouldn't be the same without'm.:scoregood

Hope you'll find what you need here.

:grouphug:

I think it's a great idea to come here more. I know it helps me and many others.

Welcome to the family, Debbie. SR helped me get sober after a lifetime of drinking. I've never looked back since signing on here, terrified and sick, over 3 yrs. ago. Some of the things people said to me early on are words I live by. They've pulled me through my darkest times. Words can't ever thank those people enough - they literally saved my life.

You seem to have a great attitude, and that's wonderful. It took me a few days to feel any sort of hope at all, but I kept coming back here and gradually the upbeat and encouraging support got through to me, & I found the strength to get well.

Please let us know how you're doing - congratulations on your new life.

Debbie welcome! Hang around and good stuff rubs off on ya! I stay here and some days post a lot, and mainly most days just read and feel that heck if they can do it I can keep doing it too.

I also do AA. Just twice a week but I am addicted to the great folks here as well.

Welcome Debbie,

Sounds like you're making friends already, so add me to the list.
D

Welcome Debbie!

I'm on day 3 myself. I know for me, it's been a real struggle. I'm glad you came here looking for help. I know you asked about the chat rooms and I recommend them. Just last night I was up until 4 am chatting. And I even get responses to posts I make in the middle of the night. There seems to always be someone around, which I found really refreshing. Like you, I like the option to come here and talk to someone "live" when I'm feeling an urge. Best of luck to you! Let me know if you ever need someone to chat with, we're all friendly around here :)

Emma

Hi Debbie...Congrats on ur day...soon i complete day 4. The fog is lifting and that has been a trigger 4 me as well in the past. 2moro i will remember how great 2day was, workout, work my tony robbins program, review my list of what i am thankful for...and remember how i felt last saturday...then commit 2 not drink 4 the day and improve my life by at least 1%.
The Best...Carlos

Welcome Debbie - good to have you with us. I know what you mean about wanting a drink once you feel good again. But just come here instead. I did that quite a bit the first few weeks and it made all the difference. Life seems a little disjointed and strange for a bit, but it's like starting any new thing - it takes time to get adjusted (and our brains and bodies are healing). So be patient with it and remember to take it a day at a time.

Hope to see you around!:grouphug:

Hi Debbie

Welcome to SR.... yep, i would be one of those Aussies that is hanging around when most of you are generally sleeping :lmao:

This is definitely the place to be if you want support to stop drinking. I look forward to following your journey :)

Oh my word this is such a wonderful inspiration thank you all again so much for your comments and for welcoming me so warmly.

I see lots of others just starting their path like me and look forward to seeing them again, hopefully like me, happily reporting on another day without any poison.

Just starting day 3, feel so much better - the devil will reappear tonight on the way home from work for sure tellling me how can it be that bad if I feel so much better already - I have an imaginary gun to fire at him and will be rushing home to get my fix on here later - I cannot imagine anything more inspiring than all these people wishing me well and giving their wonderful bits of advice, also the thought of getting through the early days with others in the same boat so we can gee each other along.

I just wish I had more time to browse around in here and have a go at the chat. It will definately be something I will be doing at the weekends. Especially those when I dont have the kids (every other weekend) which are my most dangerous as its almost like I impel myself to drink when they are not here - and I deliberately drink from when I get in from work on a Friday, sometimes without sleeping, until often the early hours on Sunday morning, then on Sunday feeling like a wreck I try to force drink down me to just be able to cope then on Monday, whilst I am probably lucky to be alive, I feel like death and like I deserve to die. Now I have this written down, in public as well, I can come back here on one of those Fridays and if I have a single brain cell it should stop me from starting that horrible cycle again.

Today is going to be a good day - by tomorrow things will be more organised for my daughters when they go off to school, a bit of the house will look better than it did before, I will perform better at work and I will be stable enough to be able to plan ahead a bit - even if that just means planning meals a few days in advance so I have everything in or starting on the ironing pile that has been growing for months!

I have proved to myself over and over that I cant drink normally despite really wanting to so I have to let that go now - I've kicked the arse out of it for years and its time to say enough is enough and to try and regain some normality in what I am amazingly lucky to still have in my life - my daughters, my house - maybe one day my self esteem, get my old body back (or lose 3/4 of the current one) and make it up to the people who I have affected through my drinking.

Again, thank you all - I cant wait to come back here later and say I will not be drinking tonight and tomorrow morning report on a clear headed day 4.

xxx