having this cold... and I feel like a mess... I´ve convinced myself that smoking weed is okee again. This means I back to smoking everyday several joints... I´ve been braking the habit a bit, today I smoked one joints durings lunch that´s all...I´ve called sick from work. Sleeping all day, I hope that tomorrow I have the strenght to stay clean. I hope that I will stay clean for the rest for the evening. Each and everytime I convince myself I don´t have a problem, I´m okay, I don´t need to be sober all the day. Then a few weeks later i´m all as much I can. It has gotta go, i´m really tired right now from fighting... |
I found that I had to stop drinking completely, before I could stop fighting. When you stop smoking, what other changes do you make in your life? |
Anna makes a good point - did you ever get to those meetings? :) Read back through your old posts CC - I used to do that when I felt my resolve weakening - for me, it was harder to rationalise the using thoughts when you're looking at posts you made from last time. D |
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