Early Recovery Part III: The Final Battle
 

So, in my 10 years of active addiction, this is my third go at recovery.
I just gotta make it work. This has to work this time. "God, grant me the serenity ..."

Did a few things differently. Went to Detox and Rehab (Total of 28 days). Normally I just do detox, get well again after 5 days, and go right back out.

I've decided not to work or go to school for maybe another year.

I'm currently fully into recovery, so I think. Making meetings daily (missed a few this week :( ),rarely did meetings before.
Meeting a lot of interesting people and building relationships with them. I've even been asked to be a reader at someone's anniversary.

going to a day program for my mental illness,

and attending a outpatient drug rehab program. Pretty busy during the week with all of this.

Just a quick, fun little questionaire to get this thread moving and look at how others did it?

1) How many compliments do you give a day?
2) How many compliments do you receive a day?
3) What was worse, detox, or rehab?
4) Did you ever ride the Pink Cloud?
5) Has it gotten better?

Welcome back Cleansing :)

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1 So from September 2008-February 2009 I made 6 months clean, but it was the worst time of my life. I came out the psych ward in September, overmedicated. I was your typical psych ward patient. Drooling all the time, unable to eat a full meal, shaking, and couldn't to sit still for more than 20 minutes. Took me like 3 hours to sleep everynight because it felt so uncomfortable no matter what psotion. Not a pleasurable sobriety phase. I was deeply depressed, but too medicated to harm myself or others. I often wished I was dead, and wanted to cry all the time if I weren't so numb.

2 Second go led me to 3 months clean, but it still wasn't 100 percent, because I was on Valium, and taking extra here and there. I don't think you're considered dirty if you're taking Benzos, but I found myself looking forward to the time scheduled for each dose, and that was the highpoint of my day. And like I said, I was abusing them.

3 Now, on round 3, I'm finally making meetings daily (except this past week, preparing for Thanksgiving made me miss a few, though that's no real excuse), doing programs, and on thereaputic values of my meds.


P.S. When I asked about rehab/detox, I didn't mean that they were bad options, I just wanted to know what ticked you off about them. Could be small or big. Rehab has saved my life, so far.

Good for you cleansing. Sounds like your on the right track. Keep it up.

1&2) Ive never thought to count!
3) Never went to either
4) might still be
5) immensely

welcome back