It's taking all my willpower to stay sober today
 

am having terrible anxiety and keep telling myself that drinking will only make it worse. So I'm doing what I should do to stay sober: I'm posting instead of picking up a drink.

I'm praying to God for his help. Would appreciate your prayers too, that my depression and anxiety will lessen and that I will stay sober today.

thank you!

Posting is good, least. Can you get out of the house for a bit? I know that if I stay inside too long it makes my anxiety worse.

Good for you, it takes courage to face the pain. You might want to check with an MD or a psychiarist regarding the depression and anxiety. I'm diagnosed with anxiety/depression disorder and also PTSD. I'm sober almost 5 months and in therapy and meds and I'm doing great, never been better. I wish for you the same. Take care.

Whatever you do, don’t shut off your pain; accept your pain and remain vulnerable. However desperate you become, accept your pain as it is, because it is in fact trying to hand you a priceless gift: the chance of discovering, through spiritual practice, what lies behind sorrow. Pema Chodron

Least you are in my prayers, I pray that you find peace and serenity and the power to do what ever it takes to get it.

(((least)))...I'm so sorry you are going through this. I wish I knew how to make it better...gosh, we all do, right? I do know that getting out, no matter how much I *feel* like I don't want to or can't, always helps...even if it's just a little.

Least,

We are in this together! I'm so sorry you are suffering. Please hang in there. Drinking only makes it worse. Drinking only makes it worse. Drinking only makes it worse. That's my mantra right now!

:praying

mle

Least ... As one who was in crisis earlier this week and contemplating drinking, your post wakes up fresh feelings. Anything you can do to distract your mind for a while? Exercise, art projects, around-the-house type projects, writing in a stream-of-consciousness way -- make a deal that you only have to do it for 15 minutes ... then after 15 minutes, if you want to stop, do. You might find once you get into it that it's good to keep going. Drinking won't help. Push through! You can do it and will feel stronger for having done so. Thinking about you! Keep posting! :c032:

Just ate some chicken soup. Will take a nap shortly. When all else fails, take a nap with the dogs. Will take them for a walkwhen I get up. I washed some dishes and put away some laundry so at least I'm getting some things done. thank you for your prayers and good wishes. It helps.

Happy Thoughts coming your way least... It's a sunny day here, hope it is where you are. Enjoy your dogs, the day and your clean dishes... :)

Mark

Thinking of you and praying for you Least. I have suffered from anxiety too and I know how hard it is. Please stay here with us. If you have a few extra bucks to spend, go online and try to find a (relatively) older book called "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" by Dr. Claire Weekes. It has helped me so much with my anxiety problems....even when I thought I was way too distracted and anxious to read and concentrate on a book, I was so interested in getting rid of the anxiety, I found it fascinating. I've had my copy for years - all underlined and circled - and I still refer to it when I am having a bad day.

Keep checking in! We are here for you!

Love
Jomey

You'll be in my thoughts today, hon. :hug:

:ghug3

(( Hugs to you))
Least,
Prayers will be coming to you today and for all who suffer.
Stay strong.

Thinking of you my Friend~ Stay Strong

Is there anyone to talk to about what is causing your anxiety? A trusted friend, relative, or sponsor?

For me, it helps to get it out of my head. It puts whatever is bothering me in better perspective. Most times, it loses it's importance & I can deal with it.

This too shall pass (might as well get through it without a drink! :wink:).

least, been there--going through some difficult things myself. Taking time to lift you up now.

You posted what I was going to suggest, getting those doggies out for a long walk/run somewhere.

Great job on keeping it in check :scoregood

Take Care,

NB

Took the words out of my mouth, Grav...

Least..you shouldn't be alone through this.

Sposnor? Meeting? Someone to call?

Whatever, keep posting..

You know you have my prayers, always.

:hug:

Least,

Sending prayers over to you. Hope you are feeling better after the nap. Stay close to SR. If you get a chance visit the August thread. It seems to be active and it even has brakefree over there who was an original member of our July class. She may even get you to smile. Hope you have a tolerable weekend. Just keep posting and hugging the pups.

Had a topic close to this last night.

I like to point out a scene in the movie Ground Hog's Day.

Every day Murray wakes up and tries to save a drunk from dying. He goes through the motions every day. The results are always the same. We drink, we heap misery upon ourselves and many times, people that love us etc.

We call it playing the tape through. Same results, different day



YouTube - Groundhog Day - The Power of Change

Still sober and still hanging on. After waking up from a nice nap it's too hot and humid to walk the dogs so I'm about to wash up the rest of the dishes. I'll walkthe dogs after sundown. Thank you all for your support. It's so good to be able to come here for support instead of just caving in and drinking.

:ghug3

Hi Least

I had a run of this last Xmas, sleeping in the afternoon and then looking forward to the time when i would be able to sleep at night, mine was as long as it's past 9pm it's ok to go to bed for the night. It was almost like seeing how long i could hold my breath, i could tell you how many days i had been sober to the hour...it was hell to be honest!

Having said that, this time round it's different as i an getting face to face support through counselling (yeah i did have that at xmas too) but primarily through AA and getting a bunch of new sober friends. I don't want to harp on about AA to you, i'm just saying that i hope you are able to find a face to face support network, it really does make all the difference.

I met a guy who, although we come from very different backgrounds, is roughly my age and 7 years sober (as in happy, peaceful and content to live in his skin and the day)...so after a discussion over coffee about similarities to do with depression/anxiety/addiciton/whatever i wanted to know how to get what he had...in fact we now have the same sponsor who asked me after a couple of meetings, and after i had asked him to be my sponsor to go away and think about whether i really wanted to stop drinking...i replied yeah that's great forget all that **** just tell me what to do and i'll do it, i want what he's got lol So i started the steps and have just finished step 5 moving onto 6 and 7, then the dreaded 8/9;-) Actually i have one amend i can make now, it's an easy one by letter to an old family doctor, i've got to draft the letter and show my sponsor the format...he told me to do that 5 days ago...better get on with it!

If you could meet someone who you could relate to in some sort of meeting/group, that seemed to be having a happier life than you, with the family etc...then you may feel that you want to know how they got what you are striving for and maybe it will be as simple as just doing what they have done. Whatever you do i hope you feel better:-)

Sorry if you are doing all of this already, but hey thought i would post this anyway just in case.

Hi Least. Just popping in to wish you the best. Hope you're doing well.

Hi Susan,

I'm glad you're feeling better.

You can do this S :)

D

support to ya, least. do your best today, sweetie - you deserve it.

hugs, k

Walked the dogs anyway, tho it was hot they liked their walk. Then treated myself to an m&m frosty from Wendy's. Now I'm full and don't feel like drinking.:ghug3

YEAH! An M&M frosty sounds sooooo good! Keep going, S! You can do it! Love, jomey