Jeez, to hell with this.
 

I just tried to post, but it is lost. I'm drunk and I'm sorry.

(((firestorm)))

Take care of yourself, Firestorm!

Poor heart :c020:

Like Scarlet said...Tomorrow is another day. :)

Firestorm... what you are doing isn't working... maybe an IOP or even rehab? I know you want to get sober... you got to start stringing some days and weeks together. Sorry to hear it man, don't give up.

Mark

Keep coming back anyhow.

(((Firestrom)))
Tomorrow is another day.....
What was your trigger, why today? Think about it, this is important. What did you do or not do? Have you been to meetings, did you reach out and call someone? You can always PM me.

Firestorm,
Please continue to post! Feel free to say anything; rant, rave, type gibberish if you want - you still have my support :)

Keep posting FS.
Never give up.

See you tomorrow :)

D

Sounds like your having a pretty bad day there firestorm. I hope when you are feeling up to it, you will jump on here and tell us all about it.
Take your time if you need to.

:ghug3

Please don't drive or be wandering around outside drunk.
Stay as safe as possible....:hug:

I hope you are OK Firestorm, please post if you can & try again. I know its tough, you can do this.

Lets figure out what happened & see if you can avoid it next time.

Take Care & know that we are thinking of you.

NB

don't even feel guilty my friend....just get better,maybe some sleep...o.k..

i understand your frustration...but i do like this quote that i found here
at SR..i think this is how it goes.....
....."the best revenge is never to be like the one who caused the damage."
...........you no what i mean..lol...Oz...

fs I am so sorry you feel so angry and ripped off, but I am impressed with your craft and the passion you feel for it, cabinet making is a beautiful art and is becoming rare, I have often wanted to learn it myself.

I make wedding cakes (you can laugh if you want to) but I charge $1000 ++++ and I am booked out. If someone does not pay I feel exactly the same way for exactly the same reasons as you do, espcially when they are friends and don't value how incredible my work is (where as other do). So instead of wasting any energy I just contact a debt collection agency, they take 10% of the collection and chase the bill for me, I have never not had it paid and I don't have to loose sleep just a couple of hundred bucks. There are loads of debt collection agencies and they should use the law and not a baseball bat. If its a cash deal its more difficult, but I would still recommend using a third party, preferably a really calm, assertive one (I use my very scary Irish bookkeeper) b/c if they view you as a friend they just keep screwing you around where as bringing in a third party a) changes the dynamic b) scares them a bit c) allows them to perhaps neogtiate paying it off in installments (you just want you money right)

Your sobriety is more important than anything and sometimes when we make something beautiful with our heart and our hands it is just like throwing pearls before swine....its hurts, but its not worth it, they just don't get it. You just need to get paid....good luck with it and thank you for your post I really do get it!

I'm glad you started another thread and that you found
a way to calm down. :) I shared on the other
one that I do write down the crap...then taer it up.

Good to know you are working thru this....:yup:

I'm closeing this thread
Please do share here with each other

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ou-defuse.html

Thank you

Thanks martha,

You really touched me, you made me think along the lines that I normally would if my vision and mentality were not blurred by excessive anger. I hate getting this angry, I hate posing a threat to people, I hate scaring people, but today i was all of that. I was mean, nasty, mouthy and quite a hand full. I scared people, and that's not my style at all. I just want my money, between the two we're talking about a fair amount of change, three grand from one and almost two grand from the other. I could really use that money now. What really pisses me off is that I spent hours just on the drawings alone for these projects, at no charge, I drew these projects from scratch and then completed the projects, from which I've received many compliments, especially at the bar which I remodeled. Now I just want to move on, be done with the bar, but every time I go there, I get the run-around, sorry, can't pay you this week, blah, blah blah. It's driving me nuts. Inside I've become a tense, out-of-control wreck, damn it, I did the work, now I want my money, not next week, not next month, the agreement was "balance upon completion," and the job has been complete for weeks now. I'm lost again, it makes me sick to even think of these jerks. Gosh, I want to smack these guys.