Blessing and a prayer
 

Here I sit at the end of a long day. Sober. In front of a computer screen. Having fought off what felt to me like demons, ghouls, saber-toothed tigers, and men of the dark through the course of the day. I stare into the light of my computer screen. Knowing my friends are there, if I need them.

I am safe though. So I will just offer a few words: I hope that each and every single one of you is blessed right now with a sense of security. And that things in your world feel right and true. I hope you have the joy of sobriety throughout the night and day. And I hope it continues on lighting your way.

When I have serenity, I pray that I will remember to treasure it even more now than I did before.

What a great post M :)
thank you!

I'm present, btw :wavey:
LOL

D

Thanks MLE, well written. I'm praying ifor the same for you at this moment. Jomey

Em,

Continue to take care of yourself!

Em forgive me if I am wrong, but it sounds like you are struggling a bit, I pray that you do find the serenity you seek. The above quote is out of the BB and is one of the promises of the 10th step, one that I can attest has come true for me and will stay true as long as I maintain a fit spiritual condition.

It has been some time since I have fought the beast, do not get me wrong, the beast is still there, but I no longer fight him any more, I am in a safe place where ever I go, yes the beast goes where I go, but the battle with him in my head is for now over and will remain so as long as I remain in the right place in my head.

I pray that you will be able to reach a point where you no longer need to battle the demons, ghouls, saber-toothed tigers, and men of the dark through the course of the day, but instead will simply be aware they are there and that you are safe.

Thank you mle...

Are You alright? :grouphug:

Not to worry. I'm not really alright but I know I will be. That's really important.

I am going through a divorce, while living in the same house as my ex who is trying to claim full legal and physical custody. He is agressive psychologically and has been physically agressive a few times in the past. So I am intimidated and stressed out. My fight is sometimes with keeping my own emotions in check and sometimes with negotiating with someone who really is not making sense to me. I am, daily, struck dumb by some of the things he is saying - asserting that I never quit drinking, that I am a bad mom, etc.

So, I find I am in the most stressful event of my life. Thank God, THANK GOD, I am sober.

And I thank God for my sober friends here. I have a hard time turning to my friends in person because I kind of fall apart. I don't fall apart here. I have time to think. (Well, maybe I've fallen apart a little here on SR in the past.... )

Anyway - that's the jist of it. Thank you to anyone who offers prayers, epecially. I am praying that my ex will feel his own heart soften and that he will see the truth that the kids need me too.

And just to follow up with what Taz shared,

From those same 10th step promises. The first time those words resonated with me (although I'd probably read them a few times before) was when it described exactly how I felt at that moment. I was trying to describe how I felt and someone pointed that page out to me, and I was floored. That's the difference between reading the steps and experiencing the steps.

You're in my prayers mle.

mle-sober May you find the peace that you are looking for. All of the best in these challenging times & in your recovery.Prayers & thoughts inbound.

NB

Em all of you are in my prayers, keep reaching out hon there are far more caring and loving people then you can imagine there for just the asking.

Em, I continue to be concerned for you and to send prayers your way.

just checking in, M :)

:hug:
D

mle..

I've been just where you are. It can be a fight. They call them custody "fights" and "battles"...

anyhow. My ex AH had long since recovered through the church..I was sober, but was still considered

the "alcoholic..unstable parent"...

Someone shared with me.."We have ceased fighting anything and anyone..even

alcohol"...and I was really frightened, until I tried that experiment. And it worked

for me. I stayed out of "the fight"...I got calm, and got on my knees..and handed

everything..my son ..up. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do up to that point

in life. My son "came home" shortly thereafter. Just keep your wits about you, stay

sober. I'll pray every day for you, mle. My heart so goes out to you...

Take care dear. :hug:

All BB quotes are from the First Edition of the BB

Checking in today, mle...

Thinking about you and your situation. And sending prayers and positive thoughts

your way. Don't let him wear you down. Praying his heart softens too.

PM any time if you want or need to...

:hug:

Sher