Thanks.

I've been using marijuana and alcohol at these levels for over 12 years. I've also dabbled in hard drugs during this time, but not in over 3 years.

Again: Me = Trainwreck unable to even get into the shower without drugs and alcohol. Me = A facking star with drugs and alcohol. Called a "genius" at every chance. Zoloft, Zyprexa, Lithium, etc etc etc. No prescription drug has ever afforded me the freedom that alcohol and street drug has.

I'm asking you, BECAUSE I'd like to be independent of these substances, WHY they're going to ruin my life. It's ruined without them...I have something to lose?

Keep in mind, I type this, without edit, with now 16 in me.

Any recovery community works, forgive the AA phrasing, for those who want it to work. With all due respect, you're a self-described troll.

But I'll tell you what I've gained from my sobriety. I may not be in Mensa, but I'm certainly no dummy. Drinking was hobbling me mentally. A year into sobriety, I'm just starting to realize how much of my mind I nearly lost. Let's see, what else. I feel 23 (my actual age), instead of 53. Shock of shocks, I'm making friends and enjoying sober socialization. My family and friends respect and trust me. I could go on, but the most important gain to me is my mind. It feels so good to be able to think again.

I hope you find what you're looking for, whatever that may be.

We're not here to turn someone else, just ourselves. Your life is your business. You came here and posted, you were not recruited.

I don't really care if I live longer. Using alcohol, meth, coke, crack, pot, oxycontin, methadone, lexapro, loratab, blah blah blah did not improve my life. They made me miserable. If that's not your experience, that's fine. But there's no reason for you to be here.

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I have long ago quit discussing recovery with an active drunk.
Please do PM me if I can assist you another time.

I do hope you remember to come back to SR.

Aside from the physical effects which are widely known and in stories all over this page, I can only tell you about my own experience. When I was drinking heavily, I was severely depressed and suffered from anxiety and panic attacks. I was on medication for those for about a year with no real result. When I started to see my drinking as a problem that was potentially interfering with my life, and started to cut back, I noticed a dramatic decrease in my anxiety and depression. By that, I mean that I went from crying for any reason at any time during the day (try doing that during a work meeting, it's really popular), to actually feeling in control of myself. Since I have had extended periods of sobriety in which I don't feel anxious or depressed at all. I am still on a low dose of anti-depressants, but they work MUCH better now.

I really wonder what you're thinking here. You say you want to quit, but then glorify the amount of booze you have in your system, along with the smoke, so what gives? Regardless of your IQ, what do you aim to accomplish here, if anything?

You may be striving to ruffle some feathers, and tick off a few people, or make fun of them for trying to live clean and sober, but what reward do you receive from this type of activity? It seems like a total waste to me to spend your time making fun of the very people who may be able to help you one day.

re-enters stage............

your exceptional typing abilities with what must be a high blood level of alcohol indicates a high tolerance. That usually indicates trouble ahead.

There is a mental health forum here that has a great deal of info on PTSD (I have that too), OCD and other mental health afflictions.
None of the medications work efficaciously when mixed with alcohol or pot.

Well, exactly. We perceived alcohol or drug use as negatively affecting our lives. You do not. My reasons for getting clean and sober have nothing to do with your life, so they would not be valid for you. My reasons work for me. You need your own reason. If you don't have one, no biggie. Keep using. It's really that simple.

Ditto what Ro said! :c011: (And what CarolD said too)

LoL. 16 peeps viewing this page right now. :no:

And guess what he is gone....

lol I think I'm having as much fun telling him to get lost as he's having with his mischief.

Speaking for myself, It's really difficult to snap that "love the drama" habit I guess. :headbange

Anyone want to join me in
the 3 other members I just shared with?

12Plus is offline.

I hope you find what it is you are after. If you are really an addict you have a huge challenge ahead, and everyone of those IQ points will be needed.

Surprised this thread dint get locked. Actually I'm surprised someone partying on a Friday night and has a IQ of over 170 would decide to come to a recovery board and tell all of them how much fun they are having.:thinking::rolleyes:

Anyway...
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I think your just messing with everybody.Thinking it's just a joke.Not funny to people like myself who really want to quit and is glad to have a place where people really want to help.

Pardon my intrusion here, but I could not pull myself away from a thread with a MENSA member participating in recovery conversation. What a treat to meet such a profoundly intelligent person! Damn, if it were not for our silly anonymity, I bet I would know exactly who you are! God, I so love to meet famous people.

As a young teenager, I dreamed each night as I lay my head to rest of being honored in the MENSA annals as the first chemically self-created genius in the history of our fair land, America. Of course, my research was in for a long uphill battle as my IQ barely passed the eighty point peak, but I was completely committed to reaching at the very least a lofty one hundred points. Please do not sneer, genius comes in many forms and my discovery of certain miracle mind enhancers was pivotal. Why, who could image that this simple Hoosier boy could leap small fences and race slow trains for hours with the joy of Superman while experiencing the effects of such a small piece of paper someone called microdot?

Who could have predicted that my periodic theft of Blatz and Stroh’s beer from the back porches of our neighbors would not only increase my mental bandwidth, but my height, beauty and charm if only for the duration of that most wondrous amber fluid. Why, as each of my uniquely magnificent adventures came with a new chemical discovery that propelled my mind through the cosmos, I found that dreaming of exaltation in MENSA was quickly fading. Who needed MENSA, when one could self-anoint genius even godliness as a simple matter of fact? I was a deity in my own world and the need for applause much less recognition from the mentally diminished was unnecessary.

I was anything I wanted to be and more, for awhile anyway. How can I describe the rage when I realized that it was absolutely necessary that the masses must pay homage to their deity? Was I not the ONE? Was I not the answer to so many questions? I was it! Obviously, they had forgotten who I am, I cried. I am! I am! I am everything and no one heard me. I looked around at the thousands passing me on the streets; twelve, fifteen abreast, moving like the tide and no one stopped, no one looked at me, no one applauded. No one knew me and suddenly thirty five years had passed in the blink of an eye; I was alone.

So welcome MENSA member to this happy forum! I respect the human ego and its unlimited capacity for hilarity and particularly the practice of my loving friends here to display only tolerance and patience when so assaulted by such an immeasurable ego as you are so willingly open to share. Who knows, you might even get some well deserved homage from this most intimate of intercourse; cool huh?

The goal of recovery is in the journey, not the destination. Buckle up, you're in for a ride. What usually brings us to the "jumping off point"?

Ok, OK. So what's the point already??

What's all the spiritual stuff going to do for us? What do we have to gain by it?

Despite popular misconceptions, Alcoholics Anonymous IS NOT A CULT. We're in a de-program to fix our otherwise messed up lives. AA is a design for living.