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Ok Rob, don't let those self doubts start taking over!

When I am waiting on something, like you are waiting to hear if you have this job, you can do something very simple. Tell yourself that it's in God's hands. That in the end,no matter how much worrying, hoping, wishing, begging, bargaining, that we do, it won't change the outcome. Then, I also tell myself that whatever happens, God has a reason.When I got laid off from my job at the end of Jan. of this year, at first I was upset. Then, when my employer told me that since it was no fault of my own and he wouldn't deny the unemployment, I thought to myself that I would have a week or two to catch up on taking care of myself. I had been running like a chicken with my head cut off since Mom got sick at the beginning of Sept. of last year. I had neglected my own health, working 10 hour days, hospital/nursing home/ or Mom's home after work. Weekends were laundry, housekeeping and helping Mom. I was getting an average of 4 hours of sleep a night. This isn't good for anyone over a four month period, much less someone with the medical conditions I have. Then, after I got my week and a half rest, as I began submitting resumes, Mom went into Congestive Heart Failure and nearly died. I then realized that if I were still employeed, I would have more than likely lost my job for being at the hospital for days on end. So, losing my job happened for a reason. I was getting unemployement, not much, but enough to live on. I was able to be with my Mom through all of this.

For as long as I remember, I would worry myself literally sick about situations. I would get sick to my stomach, vomit, break out in hives . . . the whole nine yards.What good did it do? Did it change anything? My Mom is the original Worrying Woman. I tell her that God isn't sitting in Heaven with a stopwatch, keeping track of how much worrying she does and when she gets to a certain point that He feels is acceptable, He decides she's done enough worrying and the situation will then go her way. She hates when I tell her this, but it's the truth.

A Counselor, who I love dearly for her honesty, told me one time when I was trying to take it back from God, she said," Judy, you're not that powerful to change things by worrying."

Or the Rolling Stones sum it up pretty good,"You can't always get what you want, though you try sometimes, you find, you get what ya need."

God Bless and Keep it Simple Rob, Just One Day at A Time, ok?
Judy