Oooopppppssss!!!! Damn....
 

Well I am sure by my heading you can tell I already used. Damn Meth!!! Can't even go two days. This is really hard for me. On an up note - I am trying to find a meeting today (ASAP) to get to (waiting for a call back from local NA right now). Just checking in with ya'll to let you know - I feel like your support will maybe help me. Thank you all!!!!!!

Keep trying....and being honest in your recovery is really important, so good for you for sharing the truth. All you can do it try again! :)

Pebbles

Honesty (to yourself first and others second) is a huge step. The disease won't go away on it's own. Just "deciding" isn't enough.

But, rather than hiding in shame and guilt, your rational brain is working. You are on the right track, I think.

You might be a see-saw right now. Your disease on one end and your spirit on the other. Right now the disease is "heavier." that's not surprising, it has gotten a lot more attention these days.

If you continue to come here, go to meetings, and fill your life with good things, your spirit will gradually grow and your disease will slowly starve. The balance will tip.

Don't give up!

warrens

Hi Pebbles,

I'm glad you made it back to us. Let us know how the NA meeting goes - I sure hope you get to one. Good on you for making that call.

Meeting Tonight!!!!!
 

Found an na meeting tonight (in two hours). Will post after I get home. I am soooo scared but I am going!!!

(((Pebbles)))

GO GO GO!!!!! Let us know how the meeting goes.

Keep trying and Yes! AA meetings are vital for me.
I do hope you will find NA just as inspiring,

:hug:

Is there an update?

Pebbles, how did the meeting go?? Balance being both strong and weak.


Matt :)

Wondering how it went sweety...

Huge Failure
 

Sorry I haven't posted until today. I'm a HUGE failure again. Made the meeting Sat. and it went well. They are a wonderful support group.....however......I don't deserve their support right now. I hate myself so much (and the world). Thanks to all of you and your concern but I think you might want to spend your time and energy on someone worth it. XOXOXO

We will be here when you are ready, Pebbles. You deserve support no matter what.

You are worth it pebbles. You deserve to be happy.

Pebbles

Self pity is as poisonous as the drug.

We know that what you say is the disease talking and not you.

After all, we've been there, haven't we?

I like what Matt said-balance being strong and weak. We are here to talk to both of you.

warrens

You are worth it and deserve it. And by you making even a little effort. There is hope.
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Going to a meeting sounds like an excellent idea. Good man.

Hey Pebbles,
Don't give into the lies of this hateful disease.:c004:..believe the truth...YOU ARE WORTH IT.:ghug3
If people had to get well before people spent time or energy on them then I'd be dead,
We are here for you...be there for yourself.
:praying:
GG

Self loathing kept me from getting help for a long, long time.
Please know that you are worth it.
I attended a few NA meetings in early sobriety, and I found them to be very supportive and fun too.
If I hadn't found my own program I have no doubt I would be attending NA today.
Please help yourself, be your own best friend.

Seren