Oooopppppssss!!!! Damn....
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Oooopppppssss!!!! Damn....
Well I am sure by my heading you can tell I already used. Damn Meth!!! Can't even go two days. This is really hard for me. On an up note - I am trying to find a meeting today (ASAP) to get to (waiting for a call back from local NA right now). Just checking in with ya'll to let you know - I feel like your support will maybe help me. Thank you all!!!!!!
Pebbles
Honesty (to yourself first and others second) is a huge step. The disease won't go away on it's own. Just "deciding" isn't enough.
But, rather than hiding in shame and guilt, your rational brain is working. You are on the right track, I think.
You might be a see-saw right now. Your disease on one end and your spirit on the other. Right now the disease is "heavier." that's not surprising, it has gotten a lot more attention these days.
If you continue to come here, go to meetings, and fill your life with good things, your spirit will gradually grow and your disease will slowly starve. The balance will tip.
Don't give up!
warrens
Honesty (to yourself first and others second) is a huge step. The disease won't go away on it's own. Just "deciding" isn't enough.
But, rather than hiding in shame and guilt, your rational brain is working. You are on the right track, I think.
You might be a see-saw right now. Your disease on one end and your spirit on the other. Right now the disease is "heavier." that's not surprising, it has gotten a lot more attention these days.
If you continue to come here, go to meetings, and fill your life with good things, your spirit will gradually grow and your disease will slowly starve. The balance will tip.
Don't give up!
warrens
You have no reason to be scared at a NA meeting. They know about this cunning, baffling disease and will be able to help you. It is a huge step----going in spite of fear. I wish you well and hope you find some good info about your disease, the NA program, and about how to move forward in recovery--without Meth. :ghug2
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Huge Failure
Sorry I haven't posted until today. I'm a HUGE failure again. Made the meeting Sat. and it went well. They are a wonderful support group.....however......I don't deserve their support right now. I hate myself so much (and the world). Thanks to all of you and your concern but I think you might want to spend your time and energy on someone worth it. XOXOXO
Pebbles
Self pity is as poisonous as the drug.
We know that what you say is the disease talking and not you.
After all, we've been there, haven't we?
I like what Matt said-balance being strong and weak. We are here to talk to both of you.
warrens
Self pity is as poisonous as the drug.
We know that what you say is the disease talking and not you.
After all, we've been there, haven't we?
I like what Matt said-balance being strong and weak. We are here to talk to both of you.
warrens
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: UK
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Hey Pebbles,
Don't give into the lies of this hateful disease...believe the truth...YOU ARE WORTH IT.:ghug3
If people had to get well before people spent time or energy on them then I'd be dead,
We are here for you...be there for yourself.
:praying:
GG
Don't give into the lies of this hateful disease...believe the truth...YOU ARE WORTH IT.:ghug3
If people had to get well before people spent time or energy on them then I'd be dead,
We are here for you...be there for yourself.
:praying:
GG
Self loathing kept me from getting help for a long, long time.
Please know that you are worth it.
I attended a few NA meetings in early sobriety, and I found them to be very supportive and fun too.
If I hadn't found my own program I have no doubt I would be attending NA today.
Please help yourself, be your own best friend.
Seren
Please know that you are worth it.
I attended a few NA meetings in early sobriety, and I found them to be very supportive and fun too.
If I hadn't found my own program I have no doubt I would be attending NA today.
Please help yourself, be your own best friend.
Seren
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