The Uphill Journey
 

hi everyone! i am new here and i am a addict. i used for about 3 years and then had almost 3 years clean time, but i slipped. so i now have sucessful 2 days clean. i started using shortly after i was raped bacisally to escape, i quickly found out that was not the answer, but at the time i was addicted. so i fought myself for awhile, you know the one half telling you too and the other telling you not too. i made up my mind i had to quit when i over dosed and was left to die in the front yard. it was a long journey uphill, but i made it. then i relapsed. now i am back at square one wondering what the hell happened. so once again i am back on that journey uphill that i know will never end, only get eaiser, hopefully.

Hi Starlite,

Addiction is truly baffling and it sounds like you are figuring out a way out of the downward spiral. You had 3 years clean time, so you can do it again. Take a look around and read and be inspired.

Welcome..

Well you know better, you'll do better..I believe those 3 years represent a path of knowledge for you, something you can use in climbing the mountain now...I am glad you have joined us..

there's a lot of support here..

keep posting!

You can draw strength from the 3 years that you were clean. Remember how good you felt. You weren'r sick and tired all of the time. What is the drug of your choice? Were you in a 12 step program during your clean time? If you aren't in a program right now, you really need to get in one fast. You know how to do it and you can do it again.....hugs..................Viki

Hi Starlite,

I'm glad you made it back. Welcome to our recovery family - I hope you keep posting and share a little more with us.

Rowan

Hi starlite...Glad you are here.
I hope if anything you have learned from what has happened and that I hope you remember even tho it may have been tough how life was during those 3 years of clean time.
Hope to see more of you.
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my drug of choice was any type of pain pill i could find. i also liked anxiety meds. and those over the counter ephedrin pills (which it was nothing to take 15-25 a day), but mostly pain pills (also nothing to take entirley too many usually 20-30). and in the 3 years clean time i did not go to a 12 step program, although now i think i should have. i am now trying to find a sponser and going to start going to a NA meetings, the first being wednessday.

I am glad you are here Star. I was on pills too. Lots of pills. My first DOC was pain pills then it changed to benzos (xanax). I have been clean and sober 8 months and life has gotten really good for me.

It is great that you had 3 years. You did not lose that. You still have the experience of it.

I think it is great that you are going to go to NA. I go to AA and have a sponsor and work the steps. it is a really cool way to live.

Keep hanging out here, you will find awesome people here and keep posting!

Hi starlite and welcome to SR.

I have no experience with drugs (except pot), but my drug of choice is alcohol. It sounds like a good plan to try NA.

I go to AA and was sober in the early 90's for almost 2 years. Now I'm back and I keep in my mind How I felt all those years ago and strive to feel that way again.

Glad your here.

Barb

Welcome starlite, :)

I think you now see how much more fulfilling life is without drugs and aren't going to let some lowlife rapist take that away from you anymore.

Welcome to SR, you had three years and that rocks it gives you a good start on getting back on the bus with more determination.

welcome to SR Star! http://www.xrtheme.com/content/emoticons/Kids/12.gif

xxoo, blessings & recovery...

rz

Welcome to Sr...
 

Hi starlite,

So glad you found us...

Keep posting...

Hi Starlite!!

I'm glad that you are here..lots of good support.

Karen