Hey Jen... if you feel really bad, you get to a doctor or the hospital ya hear?

I'm more than happy to talk to you and hold your hand too :).

the drinking is new.... to enhance the opiates... i hate to drink actually but ive been becomming despirate lately
even went so far as thinking about using DXM along with it before I came here for the first time
Ive been to therapy and rehab for other things and they were treating me for the drugs as well ... but i was using in rehab ...
*shakes head* :(

Hi everyone, hi Jen.
I know it's hard hun but you can do it, have you just quit or are are you tapering off the tablets? :hug:

thank you :)

Im from new york and all the hospitals want you to do when you go is to throw you in the ward, especially me since i have prior history with being a cutter and suicidal.

As of last night I stopped cold
havent had anything at all for 24 hours

Your body thinks it needs alcohol to survive. It has developed mutations in your cells to deal with the alcohol and now it actually needs it. In early recovery, our bodies crave for this reason.

Your body will heal. Mine is starting to heal. I was also able to drink huge amounts every day and the tolerance got so crazy, I was still quite active and able when I was close to being poisoned. A normal drinker would have been in hospital.

Thank you so much for reminding me. You posting here is helping me today. I still experience the mind blackout as well. Stay close ok???

I haven't kept up with your other thread, Jennifer, so forgive me if this has been covered - and I don't know what exactly you've been taking - but it can be dangerous to detox on your own. Be careful, and consider going to the ER or a detox for some supervision.

im glad i can help even tho im asking for help :)
the drinking for isnt it its the VICS *shutter*

I understand that might scare you off... but if you start feeling really ill I hope you'll consider going.

It sux just getting through withdrwals, but think if you do it this time and hang in... you won't have to do it again.

doc gave me some cymbalta to start taking as of yesturday ( i havent taken it yet scared to I heard it causes brain zaps) I had brain zaps with zoloft and i used more pain killers cause of it.
I use hydrocodone apap hardcore for 3 years now. I went up as much as 10+ a day plus some benzo usage

Woops. Missed the bit about pills. I am not so sure about what happens there but I know the combination of pills and alcohol is very very bad. Combined, they make the effect on your body even worse than the normal dose and it is super easy to get in great danger.

Are you able to get to a meeting of AA or NSAD where you live?

I did cold turkey...just on booze, but it wasn't pretty.
Got through it tho. And today I think it was the best thing I ever did.

This place was a big help Jen.

nice pic too btw...!!! :)

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I dont think that is safe (going cold turkey I mean) and no wonder you are feeling bad hun.
Rowan is right about ER or detox. :hug:

What do you think about going to the ER, Jennifer? Or to detox?

Im petrified ... I was an ex-cutter *crying*
They are gonna throw me back in there ward thinking Im gonna kill myself but Im not

I see you have spoken to your doc then... good. Did he tell you to watch for troubling symtoms or anything? I want you to be safe.

And I quit smoking cigs about 3 weeks ago so Im really cutting everything at once ....
thats why I came here I need support I dont have here in NY :(

I think it would be a safe environment for you. If you go to detox, they should have a bed for you, and it's voluntary. The only way someone would commit you is if you voiced any suicidal intentions/ideations.

Jennifer, there is only so much that can be done on a recovery forum. We aren't with you in person. We can offer you support and advice, but I think you need more than that right now.

All I want is to be safe... my personality is very addictive and I have an extensive psych background so when they talk to me I know where they are going with everything.... before they say it
thats how I know they would put me in the ward