I hope you're doing well today Mimi. =) I hope you stop in soon.

<3

A note to ChrisJ...

For a person who just got sober recently....your wisdom amazes

me...keep up the good work!

Mimi....

Never give up.

Love,

:Flower111:

Sherry

I understand this feeling. I tried to fix it through drinking and I woke up with even more pain than I had before. It was horrible.

I hope you're feeling better today. Let us know how everything is going. <3

Hey.

Woke up with that horrible anxiety in my stomach. And burst into tears. Its true all I want to do is drink this away but I am determined not to.

This feels so unnatural for me. I'm finding it SO difficult, trying to stay focussed when all I want to do is RUNAWAY.

The weather is beautiful at the moment and all I wish is that it would rain! How ridiculous is that....I guess I just have to wait for time to do some healing.

:(

Hate this.

M xx

Argh

Messed up again. Had to go back to the flat to get some more stuff. Beers in the fridge (his).

It hurs so much to even open the door, the smell of the place, my stuff everywhere. What I thought was going to be a lovely summer - its all turned to ****.

OK, I know its for the best but it still HURTS too much, eve though it was my decision. I tried to pray, I can't.

:(

I have a final interview tomorrow for a job. I so want to get it so it gives me some direction, some self-esteem, some structure.

I don't know what I'll do if I don't get it, it will break me even further and I have NO money at all, and need to start looking for a flat.

This weekend, he'll be out getting trashed without me, having fun in the sun with his mates. I hate to think about it. After all, he said that there wasn't much left out of our relationship without booze and drugs. The foundations for a quality long-term relationship - NOT. And that kinda shows you that his life revolves around booze and drugs and socialising, there is nothing else he does I can think of - apart from his job - that does not involve both. He would argue with that, obviously....

Its not that I want to be doing that - I don't - as it will only make me feel even worse. I'm beginning to get confused about what I am crying about. I do know that this is very true from Stone :) (along with all of your thoughts and comments that I am eternally grateful for):

One question, I might try and see my doctor tomorrow and see if she will give me a low dose of Librium to help me through this period and help keep me off the booze? Any thoughts?

M xx

While you are at it, why not try going to AA?

Perhaps you will admit, your way has not worked.

Thinking of you.......

Tom

Read my mind - was going to suggest AA -
there you will find people just like those on the board here.
There you will find hope.
You don't need to do this alone.

Mimi,

Thinking of you...Trust us, sobriety does get easier...

We are with you through the difficult times..., Mimi....

Yep you're right.

I'd been doing AA nearly daily for a few weeks before we split up.

I feel like it will make me breakdown, useless...I don't know.

I've just been avoiding most people at the moment and would rather cry alone that go and do that with people I don't know.

Mx

Go to ONE meeting & see what happens.

Living like THIS sucks......

I know isolation for this alcoholic has never worked!

thinking about you today, mimi. i understand this is a hard time for you. please try to stay focused on your recovery. blessings, k

I know what you mean. For whatever reason, I have felt the same way. I know what it's like to want to curl up in a ball and ignore everyone else. Sometimes, we do just need to be alone and have a good cry. But then, we also need other people. I have experienced how unhealthy it is to do this.

How did your interview go?